Today, during our prayer walk we were rebuking spiritual darkness and declaring the army of the Lord to arise and take back the city. As we were praying over a particular brothel bar I got a vision of the darkness within in the bar reaching out past the building and trying to spread but then I saw three angels of the Lord descend upon that place and the darkness had to flee. Last night I had been extremely discouraged by the hopelessness that I felt and my own spiritual dryness. I was so concerned with seeing the Lord move in the way I expected bar ministry to look like that I allowed my frustration to put God into a box that He simply can’t fit into.
We can be so focused on expecting God to move that we miss the small things He is showing us of His goodness and love. One things that Alexis mentioned was how the enemy uses a negative distortion of community. As I have continued to ponder these thoughts the Lord placed honor and humility upon my heart. As I sought the Lord in revealing to me what that has to do with our ministry he showed me that I am a princess of the Most High King. Whether or not others choose to give me honor is not the basis for showing others honor. It is because I know my worth in the King and I must also understand that ALL of His children deserve the same honor. Honor is humility in action. Humility is not tearing yourself down or bashing your spiritual talents for the sake of ‘being humble’ but rather acknowledging where your spiritual gifts have come from and giving honor to Him. Being humble also speaks to knowing how awesome you are while also building up others to know how awesome they are too.
God does not want us to tear ourselves down for the purpose of allowing others who are insecure to feel better about themselves, but rather to bring them up to the place that the Lord has called them to be. I have been truly battling this within myself. Sometimes I feel so exalted by the King, and other times I feel as if others are surpassing me and then conviction accompanies that because I do not rejoice when others rejoice. The Lord is calling me to a different calling than others and He is calling others to a different calling than myself. As I walk into all that the Lord has set before me I pray and ask that He would teach me to walk in humility, honor and love so that through me the Lord would exalt His children and they would walk in the understanding that they are lovingly pursued by a Glorious King.
