My time here in Mozambique has been a roller coaster ride, there have been difficult times where I’ve really had to rely on the Lord for strength and then other days my cup is overflowing with joy and it’s like I’ve tasted a sliver of heaven.
It’s an incredible feeling to see God transform and mold your own character and life before your very own eyes. I am becoming the man of God created me to be. God’s Word is true; there is so much life when we operate in the Holy Spirit. It becomes way less about me and my wants and needs and more about loving others and Christ.
I know that sounds elementary, but that is where the Holy Spirit really empowers us to live in. I have learned so much here in such a short period of time, about myself, the culture, the language, and The Lord and His word. Something I’m learning is that it’s ok to press in and wrestle with God and to ask Him the hard questions.
One night in worship as the Holy Spirit was doing His thing, as I was looking up at the light bulb that dimly lit the room, God spoke to me. Let me make this clear, I don’t hear the audible voice of God. But instead He speaks to me in loud consuming thoughts.
I believe The Lord told me He’s going to take me to the most unreached parts of the world to preach the gospel and set the captives free.
What???
Are you serious Lord? I don’t want to be a full time missionary. I don’t want to be on the mission field as a single man. I am not called to singleness. I don’t want to raise support and ask people for money.
As you can see I’m wrestling with God on this. I didn’t expect Him to reveal this to me month 1 of the world race.
I need prayers on trusting God in this and embracing God’s call on my life. But nonetheless I think I’ll be going to the nations for the rest of my life here on earth.
