Some things He’s whispering to my soul this month:
Tranquility – Romania is quiet, the snow is tranquil, and activity is scarce. For the past 5 months I’ve been listening to insects chirp, roosters crow, dogs bark, babies cry, neighbors loud music, and this month I can step out the door, close my eyes and listen to nothing, silence that makes your ears ring. It’s an eerie feeling I’m finding out. Which leads me to number 2:
Distractions – Due to the weather conditions, 3 days before we got to Romania they had the most snow they’ve seen in 10s of years in Sistarvot where we’re staying. In return, the manual labor we were supposed to be doing around the camp has been postponed. In return, we have time on our hands. Something I forgot about. In ministry, it’s easy to distract yourself with ‘things’ to do, people to see, etc. Since it’s essentially been removed the first couple weeks of this month I’ve been facing the reproductions of all my hard work. I’ve discussed it with a few squad mates, it’s easy in ministry to give, give, give, and pour out everything inside of you, now this is our time to Refill. Like a car, once your tank is empty all you can do is sit on the side of the road in your broken down car. The Lord is giving me these past couple weeks to Refill my tank, so one day I don’t wake up and find myself sitting on the side of the road with no gas. Which leads me to 3:
Listening – I pray pray pray my little heart out until there is nothing more I could possibly be praying about, but what I forget to do is just sit and listen. I feel like the Lord has been trying to talk to me and I’ve been so busy I haven’t been standing with ears open long enough to hear. It dawned on me when I was standing outside in the silence just how long it’s been since the last time I just sat in silence. So I get to ‘speak less and listen more’ this month.
Intimacy – My Will Reagan theme song is ringing in my ears when I think of intimacy with my Father: “Set a Fire down in my soul, that I can’t contain, that I can’t control, I want more of you God. No place I would rather be, then here in Your Love.” Just as I long for intimacy with Him, he’s teaching me that he longs for intimacy with me. My initial response to intimacy with humans is high tail it as far as possible from people I don’t trust, don’t let them in, only the people I love and who love me back, so horrible, I recognize this, I may take guarding my heart a little far. However, no greater man to be intimate with then my Father, let me tell ya. Whew, good stuff!
Carrying Me – It’s His love that carries me through. (He Heard Me – United Pursuit Band)
Thank you Lord, for the deafening Silence.
Thank you Lord, for forcing me to stop and refill my tank.
Thank you Lord, for whispering sweet truths.
Thank you Lord, for setting a fire in my soul.
Thank you Lord, for carrying me through.