“rather, he made himself nothing
by taking the very nature of a servant,
being made in human likeness.” Philippians 2 :7
This past week I have pondered about what my life is going to be like on the race. Who am I going to meet? What kind of mission work is awaiting me? Am I prepared mentally, physically, and emotionally for everything that is going to happen from hearing other people’s stories to living their realities? I have thought so much about the length of a year and how I will push on when times get tough. I have thought about how much I will miss in the lives of my friends and family- birthdays, holidays, my best friend’s wedding, and much more.
But God said follow me. God whispered to me years ago, and it grew into a fire of passion to travel and be with people. I know this desire has been coming in my life for a long time now, and it is unbelievably becoming a reality. I am blown away by God’s faithfulness of answered prayers. I have prayed for money and he provided it. I have prayed for networking and he provided it. I have prayed for comfort as I surrendered idols and he provided it. God has been faithful in the big and the little and he is pursuing me so hard- I just know and can feel it.
But God did not call me to do something without first showing me how. He is pretty awesome in that way. Philippians 2 explains it so eloquently. Jesus made the decision to be nothing. That is right, nothing. He could have been anything in this world, but he chose to be nothing and served the least of these. He is my example. So what if I sleep on the floor or eat nothing but rice and beans for a year? WWJD…. Just that. He was the lowest servant that washed his disciples’ feet. He willingly died on that cross. He taught us communion, as a remembrance of how we are to surrender our lives over as he gave his whole life for us. Although I am curiosity and nervous, I try to focus on the glory my sacrifice will bring God, even when I am in doubt.
