The other day, my mentor gave me an illustration of transition. She said it’s like the moment when a trapeze artist let’s go of her bar and is flying through mid-air waiting to make the connection with the bar on the other side. I could sense the anticipation and fear in that moment, wondering if her timing was right and if she would in fact connect with that bar, or if she would miss it completely. It did almost immediately occur to me that even if she missed the bar, there was a net below, but who wants to miss the exchange. I know I don’t.
I do have to admit that in this period of trasition, there is this small fear of missing the next opportunity; of the show ending too early and on a flat note. I have gone through a range of emotions with all that is whirling around me right now, but God has been the steady hope in which I am able to find rest.
As of now, I have to be out of our house by August 7th. I have made arrangements to house sit until about the 18th, which is perfect since I leave for Africa on the 19th. Now I just have to find a place to store my stuff until I get back.
Coming back is a whole different story. I don’t currently have a plan for where I will stay when I get back, or where I go from there. I have several ideas running through my head, but most of them I think are just me grasping at straws trying to make some kind of plan that will give me a false sense of security. The truth is, I don’t have a clue. I am in God’s hands, and He alone knows where the road leads from here.
I have been reminded also to take choose joy in the midst of these trials. It is real easy to look around me at all the unknowns and begin to fret and complain and every other reaction that is completely unhelpful. But I have made a choice to turn my eyes to the one who hold me.
I thought about it again today, that when the trapeze artist is aiming for that second bar, no doubt their eyes are fixed upon it. If they turned their gaze to the net below, even for a moment, they would likely miss the exchange all together. I need to keep my eyes fixed upon the Lord. There is actually incredible focus and determination as well as confidence and peace when I look to Him alone.
Then I had a whole new picture of God being on that other bar, waiting to receive me. With our arms extended, we meet in the middle. As I grab His and He grabs mine, I simply release my bar and glide across to the other side secure in His firm embrace. I like that picture. No need for fear or anxiety when He has a hold of me.
I am beginning to get excited about the possabilities of tomorrow. I was reading in 1Peter yesterday, and God highlighted many things to me. The first was that he addressed the letters to the pilgrims of the dispursal. This caught my attention since there is a possability that I may be relocating in the near future. I thought about how the disciples were dispursed, and how that was the very catalyst for the spread of the gospel into new territory. Perhaps, it is time that I take the principles that I have learned here and apply them in a new territory.
I don’t know for sure wheter I will be remain here in Georgia, or move on to somewhere else. I wish that I could have those answers, but God has not confirmed any direction yet. I suspect that much will happen in the next two months that will influence my future direction.
Next week, I am going to a conference at the Be In Health campus in Thomaston, GA. I will be learning about emotional and physical healing and spiritual blocks that may prevent healing. I am very excited about this conference, as the little that I have already learned through the book and through my mentor has had a huge impact on me already.
Of course, I also have my trip to South Africa and Swaziland coming up in August. I still don’t know what God has planned for that trip either, but I am expecting great things.
Once again, I find myself in a position of standing on an open horizon. My life could really take any direction from here. I think that is pretty exciting and amazing. I am not locked into anything. I am completely free to go wherever the Lord leads.
I do still need to raise the finances to pay for my Africa trip, so please consider whether you could help me with that. Those donations cannot go through AIM, because it is an independent trip. If you want to help me with this trip, please mail your donations directly to me or to my parents. If you need the address, just click on “Write To Me” at the top left of this page and send me a message with your email or phone number so that I can get you the address.
Thank you all for your continued prayers and support. I know God will bless you in return for the many ways that you have blessed me. I would love to hear updates from you so that I can pray for you as well.
May the Lord keep you and bless you abundantly as you seek after Him. In Jesus’ name.
