I’m so quick to think that “I know best.” That God’s plan is second; that what I want should be first.
That’s how it works, right? Nope, totally wrong.
God showed me that really clearly these past two weeks.
For those of you who don’t know, I am now stateside. I wanted the World Race– and God wanted me home.
I struggled to find the inner-peace with staying- I struggled to get even the SMALLEST glimpse of peace when thinking about staying. The peace never came, and the calling home became stronger. There was a time when I remember thinking out of my anger, “GOD, don’t you care what I want? Let me stay at least until my money runs out!” Here’s where I think “I know best” again. It’s so humbling to be asking God for something that isn’t what He has for you, and praying for any hope that He may “change His mind”.
The decision became even easier when my next support deadline was coming up, and I was still $3,000 below deadline. I could be sent home, OR I could make a pledge for the amount, and be indebted to AIM that money upon my return to the States. I had said before leaving that being in debt to AIM was something that I absolutely would not do. That if God wanted me there, that the money would be provided.
So many signs, one after another, confirmed my calling home.
So, here I am, back in the United States. Pressing in to the Lord to see what He has for me here. What is in store that is so powerful, so great, so needed that He called me here for it? I am now in a season of waiting. Waiting on the Lord for clarity, and for direction. There is NO doubt in my mind that there are HUGE things in store for me. That a big work was started in South America, and it will be finished here, at home. The Lord used me exactly where I was, and now, He’s using me at home.
My journey was short, but it was SO impactful. I have made lifelong brothers and sisters in Christ, and lifelong friends.
As my teammate kept reminding me, “It’s just the end of the chapter, not the end of the book.”

