I’ve had my ups and downs on the race. I’ve had times where I have been completely in love with where I am, times where I haven’t wanted to leave, times when I have fallen in love with the ministry. I’ve also had times where I’ve questioned what the heck the Lord is doing, times when I’ve wondered if the Lord made a mistake in bringing me places, times where I’ve seriously questioned why I am not safe at home in a comfy bed with my own space and a working shower.
It is really easy to say that the past 7 months have not been what I have expected. The vision that I had for MY race didn’t necessarily look like this.
MY race. Cause it is my race right?
This morning I had quiet time in the park by my $3 a night hostel. I was sitting on some grass that because I am from the PNW I sincerely do not consider grass and I was listening to Jesus Culture and reading the story of Ruth.
Every time I read that story I feel like I glean something else from it. Ruth left her life. She left everything she knew and everything that was comfortable to follow her mother in law to a new land. She did this because she made a vow. She said “where you go I will go, where you stay I will stay.” Because of Ruth’s commitment to her mother in law she was blessed and is in the line of Jesus.
To make a stretching connection, I made a vow as well. I made a vow to the Lord to serve him with my life in every circumstance and I made a vow to the World Race and to my sponsors and to myself that I was going on this trip to love the lost. Where we go I will be fully there. Where we stay I will be eager to stay there. Through faith I believe not only will I be blessed but also I will be a blessing.
So many of my squad mates have chosen to leave the race for various reasons. Many times I wish I could join them. The past seven months have been hard. Homesickness is sometimes a daily battle. But I know that when I started this adventure the Lord made a promise to me and he’s not finished with me yet.
