My team this month has spent a lot of time together. In months past we split into smaller groups to do things or we were with other times so we had reasons to not be together. This month we’ve really bonded even closer. This is month 5 together. When it came time for us to go to a local school and teach English we all stared at each other and fear crept in. We’ve been watching Lost as a team though so we allowed 5 seconds of fear and then embraced the unknown. We walked into that school and talked to the principal and then went into classrooms with no books to work off of and no idea how much English these kids actually understood. After the teachers left us in the classrooms we couldn’t help by giggle. We started with 5-7 year olds.
We went through every single song that we could think of and then when it came to hour 3 of doing that, I started to make up songs. Boring songs that I accompanied with silly dances. The kids loved it and my team, my team had my back. Even when they might not have understood why we were singing songs about water buffalos or standing up on our tiptoes and then sitting quickly. They trusted me and followed my crazy.
When we went outside and played follow the leader, I was never greeted with a “Kiyanka! What the heck are we doing?” or “Kiki, we look stupid can we stop?” Instead I would look around and my team was smiling. Fully devoted and whole-heartedly flapping their wings like a bird and spinning around in circles.
As I am looking back on this I am remembering my attitude when I first got to Nepal. How hesitant was I when Jesus was like, “Take care of this farm.” Pig farming and picking mustard is kind of like flapping my arms around and spinning all silly. My team found it easy to follow me but I had a hard time following my creator.
I missed out at the beginning of this month because of my questioning. My attitude didn’t help anyone and it for sure didn’t help my team even if they were feeling the same way.
“I know you’re with me but now it is clear. I can feel you Jesus all around. Like sun on my skin, warm to the touch. Or how you surround me and I am held by love. I can feel you Jesus all around. And though the storm it rages I won’t be moved I wont be shaken I am anchored in you. I can feel you Jesus all around.”
