A question has really been on my heart lately and I have struggled with it a lot… What gift did God give me?
I feel like my team is a group of humble power houses. They are gifted in so many ways and frequently I just stand back and am so proud of us. Then I look at myself and I really question where I fit in and what gifts did God give to me.
I'm sharing this because it has seriously affected my ministry this month. Last month I felt like that was my thing. We were working with kids and we were at camp and I have been doing that since I was 14. I absolutely love summer camps! This month we have spent a lot of time prayer walking, and opening our "home" to the church and soon we will be hanging out with some of the youth from the youth group. I love building relationships. I love hanging out with youth and playing weird games. I am an extrovert so I have no problem with people in our house.
But that little doubt in my mind has creeped in and I am really struggling with what gifts has the Lord given me and it has made me feel inadequate to do this ministry and to love on the people here.
Comparison is the thief of all joy. I know that. I know that to be a true statement. But I can't pray with as much authority as Erin. I don't have as much wisdom as Susannah. I don't worship with as much abandonment and infatuation as Lacey. I don't have as much compassion as Nikki. I can't attract people as easily to myself as Amber. I don't know my identity as well as Sarah Anne. I don't know what gifts the Lord gave me. I feel like last month I did and this month the enemy is just attacking and I'm lost.
