While conversing with a friend today, I realized many people may not believe my sincerity with the World Race's commitment to serving God. I'm not the type of believer who quotes bible verses all day. Besides, you know the truth about me from an earlier blog entry. I'm studying the bible now, reading it nightly, and developing a stronger relationship with God. Quite honesty, most of the phrases I know come from old songs my family's choir sang in church when I was younger and verses from other gospel songs I've learned over a lifetime. As a confession, just recently, while reading the bible I was quite surprised to discover that many lyrics are pulled directly from it. I felt more biblically knowledgeble afterwards. Silly, huh? I've become more careful that my words and actions show love, patience, respect, and understanding for others and an entity greater than all of us. With all my good intentions and acts, I also know 99.50% (I'm far from this too) won't get me into heaven. All this leaves me with a bunch of questions…
Is this change happening fast enough? Am I on God's timetable or have I imposed my will to derail it?
Is it too risky for you to support me on my walk to discover God's love for me and in me? Do I need to reach 100% first? Is that attainable?
I have yet to call myself a missionary. Does my word selection create doubt about my genuine-ness to serve God?
Would I be more convincing in my fundraising efforts if I started and closed each conversation with a bible verse?
Or, is my walk with God as uniquely formed as my combination of characteristics (physical, mental, personality, and other intagibles) and gifts chosen by God himself?
