Well… I'm home. It's been quite a journey. I am not sure how to necessarily sum up all that I am feeling at the moment. While cleaning out my bag, I found something I wrote at training camp. It doesn't necessarily share exactly where I am at now, but I want to share it. I am going to do just that.
"Spoke so long not knowing what to say and making up a story that would hopefully be received properly.
Now that I know what to proclaim, it's all about how.
I no longer want to care about what people think.
I no longer want to view others as competition or a threat.
I no longer want to be scared that people won't be touched by my life for You.
I no longer want to be intimidated by not knowing the outcome of situations and conversations.
I no longer want to be scared about not knowing the answers to everyone's questions.
I no longer want to live hindered by thinking and concentrating on other things other than what God wants for me, and the promises He has for me and my life.
I am dedicated to Him.
Lord, You are in control of my life.
You are the only thing I need to focus on.
You are the reason I feel and You are the reason I can feel.
I have been blessed with a beautiful mind to be unhindered by others, Lord.
My mind will forever remain in You and on You.
For as long as I shall live, I will testify Your Name and life.
No one cares about how I worship.
I will worship because YOU ARE GOD.
You are worthy of all praise and all honour and ALL GLORY.
Break my heart for you Lord.
Burden me to the point of openly sharing.
Your Love for me is a necessity in my life.
Lord, Your love is most important.
Your grace and passion is my strength.
Your JOY is my strength.
You know all things.
You care for me and my issues.
You chose me as a son."
I found my clarity in Him. And will continue to do so until…well…forever.
