This month, I have not responded in grace and in love. I
wrote two blogs that really have shown where my heart is, “Recognizing my own
legalism� and “Playing with fire.�
I have a confession, that I have adopted the role of
prosecutor, witness and judge. Lately, it has been judge. I have judged my
teammates, squad mates for their lifestyles. I have judged the church for their
lack of motivation and involvement. I have judged every person, who does not
act or think in the same way as I do.
I am consumed with “righteous� living, for it is all that I
have ever known. Is it rules or have I chosen this way to live, because I love
the Lord?
Either way, I am in the wrong and I apologize if I come
across arrogant or that I know it all because I don’t.
I brought this to my teammates attention last night and
asked for forgiveness. I feel broken and I don’t know where to
begin. Please pray for me as I begin to dive into this more.
I need freedom
I need His song to wash over me
I need these chains to be broken off of me
I need grace to sweep me off my feet
I need to be redeemed and feel love move me
To not live by rules, but to live free
