Love changes everything

People often ask me why I let things affect me. I often think, shouldn’t the things that break the Father’s heart hurt us also?

Looking back over the course of these months I have seen a lot of things. I have seen poverty at the highest level. I have seen desperation. I have seen hunger. I have seen the abandon and the unwanted. I have seen….

I remember in Thailand being completely broken while praying for a woman who had a severe sickness and being able to cry over her, to share the love of God and lead her to a relationship with Christ.

I remember in Tanzania meeting a boy in the hospital who was severely sick. His family nick named him problem but God called him Aaron-mountain of strength. The Lord broke me for this boy and called me to pray for him.

I remember also in Tanzania where God ignited my passion for women. I saw desperation everywhere and women looking for wellness in the wrong places. I saw the demonized and the oppressed. This was a month where the Lord called me to wake up North America, so they can address the needs in Tanzania. I was broken and wrecked this month but I felt strong in the Lord because I was constantly in prayer releasing everything to Him.

I remember in Uganda mourning with a woman who lost her loved one. I never cried with someone before and in that moment I understood the Father’s heart.

I remember….

These are just a few incidents that I remember and will never forget. You see love changes everything. For a while I thought that something was wrong with me.  People kept saying don’t get so attach. These words stung and hit me hard because when I pray these things get released off of me.

So for a while I thought that I wasn’t normal and that something was wrong with me. Then I realized I am not normal. God has called me to a life of brokenness and with that comes the responsibility to love deeply and move mountains in prayer and the only way to do that is to get messy and dig in deeper into greater levels of intimacy.

God has given me a heart of compassion, He has given me a voice to speak the truth, He has given me a spirit to pray, He has given me hands to touch the untouchables, He has given me feet to walk across nations with the gospel, He has given me hope to spread like a disease among people, He has given me eyes to see the unloved, He has given me ears to hear unheard, He has given me the fragrance of God to arouse people to intimacy, He given me joy in laughter that is contagious and He has given love to awaken world.

The love of God has changed my life and I believe it can change others too.  So I will be an instrument of this love for the Lord, to be molded and bended in the likeness of Jesus and to carry out the truth. Love is just not action; it is supposed to be who you are.