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“Wait for Me. Listen for Me. You’ll know.”
I wrote those words in my journal back in February. My 28th birthday to be exact.
At the time, my life was at a cross-roads [think Tom Hanks at the end of Cast Away] and I had no clue as to what the path the Lord was going to lay in front of me would look like.
And honestly, I didn’t care.
And I especially didn’t care for the words, “Wait for Me.”
If you’re like me, waiting may be one of the most difficult things for you to do. You see, we live in a fast-food, instant gratification culture. We do not want to wait. We all hate lines. Simply put, we want things right now.
Our culture, products, and behavior seemingly hinges on getting what we want faster than the last time. Seconds count when it comes to how long it takes for a task like our computer to start up. We can’t wait the extra twenty-two seconds. We want it to happen in nine.
Heck, just the other day at the grocery store I had trouble waiting. I had three items and the person in front of me had twelve.
I’m pretty sure the dialogue in my head went something like this:
“Come on, lady. The sign says ten items. TEN. Not twelve. Did you forget how to count?”
I was like the grocery store Pharisee for Pete’s sake.
The point is, we all have a hard time waiting. Especially when our hearts feel like they’ve been thrown into life’s blender and served to us for breakfast. But the truth is, instead of being discouraged that something big isn’t happening right now, I think we should appreciate the smaller moments that are taking place. Jesus is still there. And in pressing into the “smaller” moments, we may just build something in our lives we didn’t mean to build…something better.
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I could tell you guys how I ended up where I am now; I want to, but they’d just be words and I don’t want to waste them.
I could tell you how in a couple weeks I’ll be in SE Asia with the World Race and getting to invest in and walk alongside a squad of 45+ crazies for Jesus for the next 5 months. I could tell you about how I went back and forth during the whole process to make sure this was REALLY what the Lord was asking me to be a part of. I could tell you how there was doubt & fear that eventually turned into joy & peace. Especially after I met these crazies and my co-leader.
You see, I waited. I listened. I knew.
I was reminded that when I get my security from the Lord, I don’t have to look for it in the world.
I was reminded that when a Father believes in you, you’ll try anything.
My heart is full.
The group I’m going out with has blown me away already. They’re absolutely crazy, but I absolutely love them. Heck, I even cried after saying goodbye to them at their training camp where I was with them for 10 days. I’ve seen them pursue the Lord with passion, excitement and courage and they’re going to be a group that shakes up the nations and brings peace and restoration every country they step into. They also make me laugh uncontrollably.
And my co-leader? Man. She’s a high-top Converse wearing, strong, intelligent, brave, goofy, sweet lover of Jesus and the perfect compliment to make up the other half of the ATeam.
Seriously? How could my heart not be full?
I wish I could sum it up better.
I wish I was better at landing the airplane so you’d all have a good idea of what the fire was like as I hobbled through it and came out on the other side better prepared to be where I’m at now. I wish I could tell you how excited and full of joy I am [I can’t stop smiling] to be with this group and how blessed I am by the extreme amount of favor the Lord has given me to lead them.
And maybe one day I can, I hope I can. But in the meantime…I think this will sum it up pretty well:
He’s a good, good Father. And sometimes that’s all we need to remember.
Thanks for all the prayers, love and support each of you have given me. I couldn’t do any of this without you guys and your generosity means the world to me. Thank you for playing such a HUGE role in helping me reach the nations. If you want to partner up with me, please click on the link to the left that says “Support Me!!“
-k
