In my last post, I mentioned being transparent…so here goes!
The next chapter in my life….THE WORLD RACE!
Never would I have imagined applying for the World Race but I found myself up until 3 in the morning, reading past racers blogs, researching countries, and looking at pictures of the people and cultures in the countries I will be visiting. God placed it on my heart and as much as I tried to deny it I couldn’t. I even bargained with God saying “Ok God, I’ll apply. And if I don’t get it…okay! And if I do…let me think on it some more!” LOL. Before I knew it, I was getting a phone call saying “We want to invite you to the World Race!” WHOOOOOA! Okay God! You’re real funny! Me?! Kendra?! I can’t do this…and here’s why I had my doubts….
I have been experiencing such a rough patch in my life! I was ecstatic to turn 25 recently because the past year was not one of the best. It was a time where my world got flipped upside down. I was second guessing all decisions I had made in my life, struggling with comparison of myself to others, questioning if my choices were aligning with God’s purpose for me, saying goodbye to many friends to “big girl and boy jobs” far far away, ended a relationship with the one I knew I was meant to be with, and wondering if somewhere along the way I missed something.
I can honestly say that without the strength of God, I wouldn’t have been able to get through this tough time. He comforted me with His constant presence, my loving family, friends, mentors, and support system. And throughout this healing, He comforted me with these words “Nothing surprises me Kendra.” And I took great comfort in that. Even if I didn’t foresee this period in my life, it didn’t mean it wasn’t supposed to happen. It didn’t mean God loved me any less or had forgotten about me during the pain. He saw these relationships ending, He knew I would feel inferior to others my age, He planned for me to be in graduate school at this time asking myself if it was even worth it…but remember….Nothing surprises Him! I was exactly where I needed to be life, doing exactly what I needed to be doing. And God was there throughout it all, shaping me to be the woman I am today through these experiences. Those times may have been tough but they don’t define my life. The pain I have experienced is nothing compared to the joy He brings to my life daily.
There is a worship song that I listened to on repeat during this time! (And I still often do!) It’s called Touch the Sky by Hillsong and I have included the link in this blog praying that it blesses you as well! It’s a song that no matter where I am, what I’m doing, His presence envelops me and brings me so much comfort. It’s my go-to, my shelter, my strength.
This song reminds me that this life isn’t about me. It’s about Him. I feel we all tend to limit ourselves and place ourselves in boxes that confine us of being who God truly has called us to be. I strive to surrender myself to God daily because this life isn’t mine. I place my worries, my stress, my sin all at His feet. I can’t do this alone and for the longest time I tried. But I am not in control of my life. God is. God wants to do amazing things through me and you! Just place your trust in Him and allow Him to. Because when you do…you can Touch the Sky! 
