During our team time today my team one by one began to speak life into me.
Luke 5:4 was what the Lord gave Jill for me.
“When he had finished speaking, he said to Simon, “Put out into deep water, and let down the nets for a catch.”
When you first read that you don't really think to apply this to your life. I mean really, they are fishing. But then when you sit and think about it, God is wanting Simon to go deeper because there is more. God also wants us to go deeper. He is saying there is more to be found. Papa always wants us to go deeper.
There are always deeper places for us to go with Him. Always more to be found.
OK, next…
My teammate Savannah see's my daily routine for my quiet time and the Lord is telling her to tell me to change it up. To find creative ways to spend time with Daddy. Draw pictures, paint, write a story, etc.
It's like that quote you may have heard a few times in your life:
“If you continue to do the same thing, you will continue to get the same results.” That's not the exact quote but I think I'm pretty close. I don't know about you but I want more. I do want to go deeper. And sure we may be getting good results doing what we're doing but I don't want to just settle for good. For the same old thing. I want to see Abba's face in new ways.
The end of Thailand we had debrief and something that kept coming up from our squad leaders and people on my team was to dream bigger.
Dream bigger.
That's what God has been whispering to me lately.
After our team time today Sav shows me a video of this ministry that a married couple started. A young couple who long for people to find out who God is and who they are during this journey.
I was thinking how awesome it would be to be a part of their ministry and to learn from them. I was thinking “wow, sign me up!”
Then the Lord decided to blow me up with something…. “Kendall, dream bigger.”
I mean you should have seen this video I watched. Absolutely powerful. Yet God is telling me to dream bigger. I thought that was pretty big to desire to learn from such a spirit-filled couple like them.
Daddy speaks to me and says “my dear you can create this.” Ummmm….. What God?
He showed me that He wants to use me to create something like what I was watching. I honestly don't have a clue what that looks like or what that means and it kind of scares me but what I do know is He wants me to dream bigger. He wants me to create the kind of environment that I long for. He whispers, “You can do it.”
We have around 2 months left on the race and many of us have been thinking about what we're going to do when we get home. I have several things that I am praying into. But really I have no clue what I'm going to do.
I have been praying for God to show me. For him to close doors and open doors. I'm at a place where I will do whatever He wants me to do. Whether that is stay in Tennessee, move to another state, or another country.
I really am okay with whatever He wants. So then I think… Well, what do I want?
Duh, I want what He wants. Then I'm back to “well what does He want?” Oh, this vicious cycle. (Hopefully some of you can relate.)
But, what do I want?
I want to be a person who pushes people to walk in the freedom God created them to walk in.
I know I desire to be a person who creates an environment where people exercise that freedom. Where God uses me to usher others into this crazy insane place with Him. This place where people can dance, sing, shout, lay quietly, or bow before him. I desire to be used to push people to a place of fearlessness, to get out of their head and out of their bubble and to be OK with looking a little crazy for Him, and walk in fullness and freedom that is so available to them.
But, what does that look like? Where do I go to do that?
I don't know what will be next when I get home in June. But, for now I will do what He is telling me to do and….Dream bigger.
