The past 7 months have brought on some of the best moments of my life and also some of the hardest.
I wouldn't want it any different. It’s sweet to be able to look back at previous months and notice the ways God was growing and refining me. Holding my hand through it all.
We all have stuff. Mess. Dirt. Film. Call it what you would like. We have it and He: Daddy, Papa, God, our Father wants to get rid of it.
For me that’s what a lot of this race has been about- In the process of loving on people, preaching, and praying Him teaching me to become smaller while He becomes bigger.
Me truly fading into the background while all that’s being left is Christ.
Something He has also been teaching me throughout this journey is living in the moment. I understand it’s ok to be excited about future plans and things to come but there is a difference in the excitement and the wishing you were already in that moment.
A few days before we left Rwanda I prayed. I prayed and asked God to speak to me about the next month. “Father, speak to me in my sleep, for what’s to come next month in Uganda.”
That night bam. I dreamt all night. I woke up and went back to sleep many times. Every time I would fall asleep I would see Colossians 3.
“…set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above not on earthly things” Colossians 3:1-2
So there it was God telling me to look at Him.
I have spent many days looking forward;
looking ahead to the next thing, the next place, the next sweet moment.
Only to have God whisper to me here in Uganda that all the things I look forward to are temporary.
“Beloved, if you are going to look forward to anything let it be eternal.”
Revelation.
Our Daddy is so sweet He gives, and gives, and gives.
We look and we look and we look.
Many times we look everywhere but the place we’re at.
This month has given me so much time to process (hence all the blogs). It has been a month of processing and of flourishing. Blooming into a place where I keep my eyes, my mind, and my heart fixed. Keeping them fixed on Him not on the temporary. God is here. God is with me in Africa and with you wherever you find yourself today. If we choose to look forward to somewhere or something else we will miss out on Him.
Keeping our eyes fixed on Jesus will allow us to live in this moment because He is in this moment.
Here is a quote that I love, love, love: “But I don’t think on the future or the past, I feast on the moment.”
So look in the now, God is in the now. Ask God to teach you to feast on this moment. When things get crazy all around you listen for His whisper. Long for His Kingdom and let that longing drive you to bring Heaven to earth. Isn't that why we are here? To give others a taste of Heaven, the love of Christ, a piece of the Kingdom. Let Heaven invade wherever it is you are. In this moment you just may be the only Kingdom someone see's.
