For the last few days I have been thinking over and over in my head what about training camp I wanted to express. The Lord did a major rebuilding in my life and my heart over the last 10 days, as crazy as that sounds it did happened in only 10 days! The last 10 days where the longest 10 days and some of the hardest, but at the same time those 10 days will be 10 days I will never forget.
Just a short scenario of some of the high lights at camp that I thought you would find humorous:
- For the first few days we had amazing weather of the high being 50! Yay (Sarcasm there a little. I mean hey I am a Florida girl at heart)
- No electricity in our living quarters. I finally had to give in and use a head lamp something I thought would never be on top of my head.
- I don’t think we saw napkins when we ate till the last day of camp.
- I, yes I Kendall, dug 2 holes one for the girls to pee in and one for the guys to pee in (and well use for whatever purpose needed J )
- push ups and rocks don’t make a good combination and that is all I can say
- Last but not least, I took my first shower in 10 days last night!!!….I think my mom is going to have to purchase a new bottle of body wash I might have used most all of it.
These are just a few of the more humorous events on the last 10 days. But beyond that God did a MIGHTY MIGHTY work in my life, one that was much needed. The word that came up most in my thoughts over the last 10 days was the word TRUST. I for so long had myself convinced that I was trusting in God, but this week proved differently. It is easy to speak that we are trusting God but a completely different thing to actually believe and fully trust the Lord with EVERY aspect of your life, big or small.
There have been things this year that have caused me to lose my passion for the Lord, leading me to conform my relationship with God to a place where following him was comfortable for me. Taking scripture and almost distorting it so that my actions and thoughts would be justified. The truth though is my relationship with God should look radical and God is WAY to big of a God to conform him to myself, I should be conforming my life around him making him the center of my life, not the other way around. I had to deal with anger and trust issues with God, which is hard to say, who wants to admit that they have had issues of anger towards their creator and towards the person they should be having the deepest love relationship with. I though admit that I did not trust God and that reflected many times over the last 10 days, I mean many times, more than I would like to admit.
I though can say that I truly am more in love with God more passionate about God more RADICAL for God than I have ever been. No longer am I molding him around my comforts. No longer am I living in this world AND OF this world. I am walking in a peace that I have not experienced for so long, and let me tell you it feels so amazing and peaceful. The verse that I had to remind myself of OVER and OVER of this week is:
“I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you TRUST IN HIM. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13
