Recently, I read a friend's Facebook status that talked about how she asked God to put her in situations where she needed to trust God, for everything. And guess what? When she asked, God showed up. God provided her with the things she needed and even the things she just really wanted.
Now that is one scary thing to ask for.
Why would you want to give up control of your life?
We live in a world where we feel like we shouldn't ask anyone for help. We like our independence and being "in control of our own destiny." But we fail to recognize our pride that won't let us be dependent on others or God. We refuse to admit we don't actually control anything. We just think we do. God is Sovereign. What that means is if God wants something to happen, it will happen. The opposite is true, too. If God doesn't want something to happen, it won't. But even with that, He wants us to ask for help. He wants to provide for us. He wants to love on us…in ways we can't begin to imagine! God loves it when His children asks for the little things, the big things, the things we need and the things we want. He loves providing for us, because it forces us to admit our dependency on Him! We like to think our list of accomplishments (accumulating stuff, providing for family, building a career) was ALL us…but it's been God all along!
So I asked God to put me in situations where I had to trust Him, where I could do nothing else. That is the scariest prayer I have ever prayed. I trust God and I believe that he will take care of me. But it is so hard to quit wrestling with God for control and it's even harder to live out.
This is where my supporters come in. I need prayer. I need encouragement. I need strength. There is a financial element to this, too, but it's more important that I live out my reliance on God and His Sovereignty in my life. All God asks of me is to be obedient and willing. This is where I'm at right now.
God, I give you control, I'm letting go. I'm done trying to be the little kid who thinks she can help cook or do the dishes and in reality I'm making a mess of things. Father, turn my desire to control my life into a desire to live only for You. Bless me with peace while I wait for Your provision. Remove the worry that comes with waiting. Thank you, Lord, for Your love and desire to grow closer and provide for us. Amen.
Stop trying to control it, whatever it is, and let God move!
