On Tuesday I was posed with a question, “Am I ready for God to take me to a place where I am uncomfortable and give it up to Him and trust in Him that He will get me through it?” When the question was first posed to me I didn't know, I had no idea, I felt like my heart might be saying yes but my head still needed to control it. The question was stuck in my head the rest of the night and I couldn't stop thinking about it.
The next morning I was awoken by God, just to ask me a question, a random question at that. The question was (since I know absolutely no Spanish) “Do you believe that God could give you the ability to understand Spanish just like that?” My answer? YES! I went back to sleep and woke up a while later kind of confused about the whole thing. Later that morning I was asked a random question about something in Spanish, and I could answer it, I had no idea what it was up until that moment, it was wicked! (Yes, I did just say wicked).
During our morning worship session before ministry on Wednesday I had a moment where I had absolutely no idea where I was, what I was doing, anything. It was like I had 5 minute amnesia or something. I was definitely concerned about how ministry would go that day since I was still having moments where I didn't know what was going on. But we got to our ministry site, and that's when things really got crazy.
So pretty much if you talk to me for any amount of time you know how shy I can be and how uncomfortable I can be around people and how unsure I am of my words a lot of times. Well, God definitely tested that. You see, we have been doing door to door ministry and in my group of four people that I was working with at the time we have two that are very confident in everything they say and do. Well, God decided to take that out of the game. One of them stayed back with our Squad Leader and the other, well God told her not to say anything… at all. So it was up to me and my other team mate.
The first couple of houses were EXTREMELY awkward, but somehow we pushed through them. I could tell from the first house exactly what Sarah was doing by not saying anything, but I didn't understand why at the time. Slowly as the houses passed I became more dependent on God, and the words He was giving me, not on Sarah or Hannah who could ask the right questions or say the right things all the time. It was amazing to see how it just became less and less of me and more and more of God with every house! It was the first day I absolutely loved ministry and was sad when we had to leave.
I went into ministry that day terrified because I didn't understand what was going on inside my head and I left it realizing the power of Christ and that none of this is me, it's ALL God!!! So, to answer that question I received on Tuesday, yes I absolutely believe that God can take me into an incredibly uncomfortable situation and take me out of it a completely new person!
