Over the last week or so I have spent all of my time working, sleeping, or stressing; or a combination of the three. And this morning, at 3:30 I might add, while I was getting ready for work I finally had my first official breakdown of this trip (YAY!). I had felt the tears coming for a while, and I'm not sure if it was the lack of sleep, the headache, or the lecture from my mom that sent me over the edge. Whatever it was, thank you God for sending it! It helped to clear my mind and somehow, it got rid of my headache! 🙂
So while I was at work, I was trying to remind myself not to be scared of this trip because God is here and this is something He wants me to do. I started thinking about what this next year and what it would look like if I hadn't decided to go on this trip. And I asked myself, “Why am I doing this? Why not just stick to the American Dream? It's much easier.” And the only answer I could come up with was “I don't know.” Because a year ago, I was excited to graduate college, start a new job, and get an apartment with my best friend. The start of the American Dream right? Yeah, well God had other plans; these are definitely not my plans because I never would have decided to do something like this on my own. He likes to do that to me a lot, give me a want to do something and have no idea why. It's a God thing. 🙂
It's so crazy to think about how God works; like with my choice to go to Ouachita. When people ask me why I chose to go to OBU my answer is usually, “I don't know, I just did.” But looking back I realize that if I had chosen a different school I never would have met the friends that helped me to be the woman of God I am today, and I never would have met the two lovely ladies that inspired me to do The World Race and got me connected with The Race; so ultimately I wouldn't be sitting here writing this blog right now. It's amazing to see how God uses one seemingly useless event in your life to shape your entire future. I can't wait to see how He uses The World Race!
