Even though I no longer had a fear that I wasn’t supposed to be here,
I had a fear about how God was going to use me.
I’m not the most knowledgeable when it comes to the Bible,
and even less so when it comes to sharing the gospel.
But once again, God showed me how awesome He is and that He knows what He is doing.
One of the sessions later in the week was about prophesying;
yup you read that right.
And again I was feeling lost and incompetent in what was going on.
I had two amazing squad mates pray over me and one interpreted her vision as a breakthrough,
(“wait, you mean I have more walls to bring down!? Oh boy.”)
And the other one said she saw where I viewed myself and where God saw me being (like on a scale),
and of course God had me way higher than I thought I should be
(“oh boy! I’m in for a crazy, life changing year.”)
Over all, the week was an awesome, emotional rollercoaster for me
(I cried more that week in front of complete strangers than I have ever cried in front of friends, and I didn’t care!)
but it was definitely something that I needed.
God has shown me and reminded me of so much,
the biggest being that He has a plan and that I just need to trust in Him
and let Him work His awesomeness in my life.
God is soooo good!
He uses our fears and trials to teach us stuff that couldn’t me taught in a better way!
CRAZY!
I had a fear about how God was going to use me.
I’m not the most knowledgeable when it comes to the Bible,
and even less so when it comes to sharing the gospel.
But once again, God showed me how awesome He is and that He knows what He is doing.
One of the sessions later in the week was about prophesying;
yup you read that right.
And again I was feeling lost and incompetent in what was going on.
I had two amazing squad mates pray over me and one interpreted her vision as a breakthrough,
(“wait, you mean I have more walls to bring down!? Oh boy.”)
And the other one said she saw where I viewed myself and where God saw me being (like on a scale),
and of course God had me way higher than I thought I should be
(“oh boy! I’m in for a crazy, life changing year.”)
Over all, the week was an awesome, emotional rollercoaster for me
(I cried more that week in front of complete strangers than I have ever cried in front of friends, and I didn’t care!)
but it was definitely something that I needed.
God has shown me and reminded me of so much,
the biggest being that He has a plan and that I just need to trust in Him
and let Him work His awesomeness in my life.
God is soooo good!
He uses our fears and trials to teach us stuff that couldn’t me taught in a better way!
CRAZY!
