Hobbit Habits

 

There is a saying that “old habits die hard” and I find that particularly true in my life. My hobbit? Sorry habit,

 Hiding.

 

 

 

 

 

Whenever I see that a goal in my life is about to be reached, or a piece of my life is about to be set in stone I hide. For some reason being locked into something, having a commitment I can not leave scares the poop out of me. 

I feel anchored down. I feel like my freedom is slipping away, even if it is something I know I need or will love. 

So you can imagine my feelings as The World Race approaches. This is a year long commitment. It is an amazing one! My life is going to be full of excitement and freedom that I have never experienced before. I am going to be able to live out my passions daily for the next 11 months. The last thing I should want to do is hide….but I have been hiding.

Hiding in my books, in work, and even my daily activities. Even hiding a bit from God and His presence ,because then I have to face that all of this is real. I have to prepare for the hardships, the unclean water and the dirty clothes. I have to accept that I will look at poverty in its eyes. I will see the faces of those hurting and be broken by it, and still have to do what God asks of me in the midst of it not matter how much my heart aches from it. 

This year will be beautiful. This year will be ugly. I am going to have to live out Mathew 16* daily. It is wonderful and scary. I can no longer hide in my hobbit hole. I must now stand up with my team of people, all different but with the same mission in mind, to follow the path God has set before me. 

So here I go running. No more hiding in the small fears ,but setting forth on my adventure with Him.

 

 

 

*Mathew 16

Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me. “For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. “For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?

 

This clip from The Hobbit is a perfect potrayal of the argument of my heart.