It is the beginning of month 5 and my new team, Team Elohim, is here in Zambia, Africa doing Unsung Heros. Before arriving here in Africa I was not ready or excited for the month ahead. I hated UH the first time around, I was on an all girls team again for the second time, and I just really was struggling with the new changes. I have realized that it really is your choice to make the best out of every situation. God has shown me that I have pride issues and that I need to learn to let go and trust in His plans for me. So here I am, finally blogging about his new chapter of the race.
This month has been a month of abundance and blessings. God has truly shown us His favor and has allowed us to meet the most amazing people and connect with some amazing ministries!! I have never felt more at home than I do this month and I am starting to let down my guard and embrace the new changes God has given me. God has redeemed Unsung Heros month for me in a way that I can’t comprehend but I will gladly accept.
So this is the hard part….
I hate asking for help, more than anything in life actually (except for snakes and spiders) and it is now time for me to lay my pride down and do it. I need help. As the next deadline approaches, I still need 4,300 dollars to continue on this journey and I need it pretty fast. My next deadline is December 31st which is rapidly approaching and I have pulled all my resources. So now it is up to you and the Lord’s plan.
I’ll be honest. I have been battling the urge to stop asking for help so that I can have an excuse to go home. I miss home so much and I want to be able to settle down and see what is in store for me there, but I also know that God has so much left to teach me. I can’t give up because I want comfort. I have to give God one more day everyday. I have to fight the enemy and his lies.
Since the race I have been a mother, sister, friend, light, healer, conquerer, believer, and a teacher. I know that God has more to show me and has ways He is wanting to use me that I haven’t even thought of yet, and if I leave now… I will spend the rest of my life wondering what I missed. If it is God’s plan for me to go home then I will have peace knowing that I didn’t give up and that I trusted Him even when it wasn’t what I wanted, but if His plan for me to stay then I know that I will be even more changed.
The growth I have experienced is unreal and has no way of being put into a blog what the Lord has done in me. I never knew I could love so much and feel so much love in return. I never knew how much God could use me and my weaknesses and turn them into strengths for His glory. I never knew I could give up my family, boyfriend, friends, and the comforts of home and only have Him to rely on. Jesus is so faithful and I have experienced Him in such a new way! The Lord is just so good and if He can make all things out of dust, raise the dead to life, send His son to die for my name alone, and know my life before I was even brought into existence then I know that I can trust Him in this. In the world race. In Africa. In community. In my team. In fundraising. I can trust Him with all things!!
So I am asking that you will spread the word and be in prayer over this. I need help and I hate asking for it, but I can’t give up. So I am going to fight till the end and I would love to have you join along with me! I know 4,300 dollars is a lot but to the Lord it’s just pocket change! If you can’t give that is fine but I ask that you be in prayer over the provision of me and all my squad mates that are in need of funding as well. We are all in this together and we know that the Lord has a beautiful plan for us that will add to our unique story!! Thank you all so much who have been with me since the beginning. Your support and encouragement have given me strength to push forward and allowed me to continuously feel loved!! Praying for each and everyone of you and ask that the Lord blesses you in the most amazing ways!!!
