Hallelujah internet!
So I really don’t have one topic to write about but rather millions of things are bouncing off the walls of my brain and I am going to attempt to write a few out in a way of human understanding.
The past several days Tim and I have painted, all day… just painting and while we paint we listen to worship music, sing to the Lord, listen to a sermon… or just flat think. And I cannot tell you the freedom that has come along with alone time in the presence of the Lord. I know I just know God took a big sigh when I was assigned many days of painting, I bet heaven said something like this “its about time we have her all to ourselves!”. All my mind and focus is on listening. My ears are new, my eyes are new, and my heart has never had so many doors opened to the heartbeat of Heaven. Everyday I learn from the Lord. EVERYDAY. What an honour, a privilege to HEAR from my God, my King. To have Him WANT all of me… all my attention, He has so much to say. I am a believer that God is always speaking something. Sometimes our ears and hearts are not in tune with the station he is speaking on. (Hindes from Training Camp).
As much as a privilege we have to re-present Christ, it is also and importantly a responsibility. I wrote down a lot on this while God was teaching me about who I am becoming… here comes some heavenly vomit…
I represent Jesus Christ, the Risen One. I represent true-heavenly-unending love to all of brotherhood. I represent the grace of God by me walking in salvation. (living as saved, He did NOT die for us to live in fear, or shame, or insecurity) I represent transformation. I have a new life. I AM free. I represent inner-eternal beauty that fades NONE. He is beautiful, he is in me. I am responsible for justice to reign (Isaiah 42:1). I am responsible to influence this WORLD with faith. My life is to be evidence and living proof of heavenly experiences. My life proves sufferings to reveal blessings through Jesus (Deut. 8:5). My everyday, OUR everyday holds significant meaning and purpose. Every breath, every word is a moment to reveal Christ. I am part of the body of Christ, I am part of the church. We as Christians, we all are a different part. I am responsible for surrender (1 John 5:21). I am responsible to fear NONE but God (1 John 4:18) that means I don’t have to fear spiders… by the way I am less and less fearless of them all the time, my non-fear of them has actually frightened me. Haha! Anyway…I will choose to love. I am CHOOSEN to do the will of God (Mat. 7:24). To seek the Kingdom above all else and to live righteously (Mat. 6:33). ” And whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father” (Col. 3:17). Our duty, our calling as representatives of Christ holds weight everyday. Notice the word represent… to “re” and “present”. As Christ is no longer living ON EARTH, we are to be like Christ. We are to be what he is, to re-present ALL that He is.
Now I am learning this life, I am learning all the time what all these scriptures.. these words of God, actually mean. They hold incredible weight. But to know… to try and fathom that the King of all Kings has chosen me and YOU to represent Jesus. All that Jesus did here on earth, all the miracles and all the truth he spoke, and all the love he so freely poured out to EVERYONE (yes, even the prostitutes, the low class fisherman, the demonic, the broken, the hopeless) all the things Jesus DID here on earth the Lord says we are and WILL do the same works as Jesus and even GREATER (John 14:12). WHAAAAAAT?! Greater things than Jesus…. So the God of the universe, the One who spoke and created light and land with just his VOICE, He is telling us that we as Christians are to do greater works than Jesus. Me. Saved from filth, rescued from a pointless, normal-ugly-worthless life, he wants me to do greater things than Jesus. Oh, and not only me but all of the saints all over the world. We ARE to DO greater things. He has given us all we need to do so, to prove Him, to prove heaven, to reveal God as good and faithful… we have it. Jesus died for us to have IT. The Holy Spirit was given to us to help us, to teach us, to speak to us, to be our guide into this kind of heavenly— Jesus love’n life.
I am willing. I am willing and I dare to say that I am eager to go through the fire of molding. So that God can use me to reveal himself. To do these greater things, to understand Him and His powerful-loving ways I have to get rid of me. To death of the flesh that is just like the rest of the world, that does not have a purpose. To death of those desires that last for a brief moment and then turn to guilt and regret. I am seeking after a life that is FULL. A life that I CAN have, which is better and beyond any that this world could ever offer me. A life of unending love from the God who hand-crafted me. Love so strong and so huge that I cannot bear to understand it fully. The trials are for His glory. The persecution, I will take for Him to be revealed in glory. The confusion and weird eyes I expect to see from this world, I can and will face, because He is worth it. He is worth it all. Even an ounce of His love is enough for me, but He chooses unending love. Even one experience with Him is enough for me but He chooses a lifetime of experience.
I could write, or type all day and night about His goodness. Taste and See. He is for us. All of us. Thank you JESUS. Thank you.
I have found that showering with my sweaty clothes on actually allows me to do two much needed things at once.
I have found that there are many many different tactics to crossing the street and it changes in every country.
I have learned that I can buy something in Togo, Africa that we might not be able to find in the states. I bought a snazzy pair of Barak Obama underwear.
I love love love yall. God bless you all for supporting me. For allowing me to be a vessel for Christ to the nations. Because of yall’s support and love, I can represent Jesus as best I can to our brothers and sisters all over the world. I am not alone, we are all the body. We all have our own unique functions; and without you all I would not be where I am. So thank you. Thank you.
TRUE LOVE
