I’ve come to learn that whatever God calls me to, good or bad, always satisfies. I am enjoying, not only this country but the season that I’m in so much. It required me to go through some trials and God has had to remove some distractions, but I wake up each morning with one desire; that the LORD would give me grace to witness to someone today.
This past week in Lilongwe, I’ve come across many people; lost people, traveling people, rich people, poor people, and merchant people from many different countries who are all looking for something. When laying my head down at night and praying for them all to have their eyes opened it is so satisfying and joy-completing. It’s simple. To be in this place and to want nothing more is, for me, to be at the center of God’s will.
Sometimes I just want to be clean, or be able to organize my things in my backpack, or to at least know that they’re safe, or sleep in my own bed or hug my dad and laugh with my sister…but when you know you’ve had let go of all those things for the sake of love and the sake of the gospel and you realize you’re in the best place God has for you, that’s when it gets real. That’s when you find a peace like never before and a joy the world will never know. It’s quiet and clear like a creek running through the woods in late spring. The world may pay no attention but it’s there and it’s beautiful. True beauty doesn’t need attention(Secret Life of Walter Mitty). When I pride myself in nothing and admit I cannot do anything apart from Christ (John 15:5), when I become weak then I am strong (2 Corinthians 12:10), when I am worn for the sake of Christ then I am made real, whole, beautiful, free, and I find myself at the center of God’s will. Completely satisfied.
Inspired by an old anonymous poem: Believe and Be Satisfied
