Hi guys! Tonight, please allow me to be super transparent with you all.
This process has seemed to have made me feel drained, desperate, and defeated.
The truth is that none of this is easy, none of this is comfortable, and none of this is normal. I am uncomfortable asking for money, I am uncomfortable explaining why I’m not in college and how I don’t know if that is in the future for me or not.
But, I am realizing that God is not just using the World Race to teach me things while I’m on the missions field, but also during the time of preparation. He is setting trials before me left and right to test my trust in His plan that is ultimately greater than any plan of mine. And the truth is that His plan is not comfortable. It is not easy.
As my 3-year old friend, Khylee, reminded me today, “God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind,” (2 Timothy 1:7) (she said it just like that, I swear) I was blown away by the sense of peace that brought me. The Holy Spirit just used a stinkin’ cute 3-year old girl to put me back in my place. I don’t know why I’m surprised, because the Bible talks about how cool kids are all over the place. But I had been feeling so forgotten about by God, so worried about what I was going to do after the race, worried that I was not going to raise this money, so confused why my teammates had been receiving donations up the wazoo and my funding had come to a standstill. The Lord asked me, “If I provide for them, why do you fear I won’t provide for you?” I desperately needed that spiritual discipline.
The Lord has called me to this route, just as He has called my teammates. I know He is faithful, and not only to a few of His children, but to ALL of us. God is not selective. He does not play favorites. His grace is sufficient for me, just as it is for you, and you, and you and you and you and you. His timing is nothing short of perfect.
I’m writing this as a reminder that I still fall short of God’s glorious standards daily, but that *spoiler alert* He is still faithful and his steadfast love remains!
I am also so thankful for the support that I’ve received in the form of prayer, encouragement, and donation. I am asking that you please continue the support. I have made it this far and I only have 159 days left until I launch to Thailand!!! The faster it approaches, the more the surreality of it all fades and becomes a reality.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and for all of the uplifting words of encouragement, love, and support. You’re all awesome 🙂 have a wonderful week!
