Today I did something that I have never done before in all the years of my life. I woke up at 5 a.m. on my own for absolutely no reason whatsoever. In fact, it is currently 6 a.m. and I am still the only person awake. This tragic mistake was brought on by the fact that I have absolutely NO sense of time here. I am sure that soon the Lord will grant me peace in that area, but currently my mind is constantly screaming “WHAT TIME IS IT?!” and “SWEET JESUS, WHERE IS MY CELL PHONE?”
So here is my new life thus far… Yesterday morning I left Detroit and flew to Atlanta and met half my squad in the airport. We drove back to AIM headquarters in Gainsville where we were SUPPOSED to spend the night camping (surprise, surprise) but God had mercy on me and sent a torrential downpour so we ended up sleeping inside the office building. Today the rest of our squad flies in and for the next few days we will be finishing up our training in Mexican town. We are also supposed to purchase 5 meals with 15 dollars. I'm hungry just thinking about it. THEN on some mystery day, we will all fly to ROMANIA.
Why mystery day, you ask? WELL here is why… THEY NEVER TELL ME ANYTHING AROUND HERE. I knew going on this trip would take a lot of trust but I never knew just how much. Basically, we are told what our schedule will be for the next 5 or 6 hours at a time. My friend Ruth mentioned a book I should read called “Just Enough Light for the Step I'm On”. Just the title has a calming effect on me. As much as I'd like to, I don't really NEED to know what's going on all the time. (Just like I probably don't really NEED my 50 pounds of luggage but let's take this one step at a time, my friends)
I'll cover one last thing before I go pass out for the evening. I've decided that when the Lord gives me things to work on in my life, I need to post them in this blog. I hope this will encourage you all to keep be accountable and I also hope that you will take it as a challenge if it is something you need to work on too. Here goes, this year the Lord is going to teach me discipline. There have been quite a few occasions this summer where I have been in situations of worship and I just wasn't feeling it, last night being one of them. I was physically exhausted and emotionally drained and I just wasn't in the mood to sing or dance. The Lord spoke to my heart through our worship leader and said “WORSHIP IS A CHOICE”. That is something I need to work on. I've chosen the Lord for good AND bad days and He deserves my praise regardless of how many hours of sleep I've gotten.
Thanks for keeping up with me 🙂
