Lately this month I’ve been feeling alone and unseen. It’s easy to feel this way when my voice is easily drowned out in groups and I can be pushed to the side without notice. As frustrating as that is, it’s even more frustrating when you feel alone in your relationship with the Lord. I was especially feeling down about myself this past Saturday, when my squad and I attended a soaking prayer put on by Iris Ministries.
At the soaking prayer, worship music is playing on the speakers and people spend time simply in prayer, worshipping our Creator, and praying for one another. My friends were going to one another praying for each other and telling about the visions the Lord had given them for the other. I was so excited to hear from God whether it be through God telling someone to speak to me or if it was through Him Himself. But all was silent. In a room where God was moving, I felt alone. Abandoned. I couldn’t hear Him. What was wrong with me? I felt disappointed and hurt.
Right before we left to go back to our house, a girl from Singapore sat next to me. She then leaned over and said these words to me: “God just wanted me to tell you that He calls you His Little Princess, His Daughter. He says that He sees you, you’re not alone. You shine as bright as the stars in the sky. There’s no way He can’t see you, His Daughter.”
I sat there a little shocked, as if I didn’t hear her right. Two nights before I was telling my squadmate, Laura, that Jesus tells me He loves me through shooting stars as we were walking and looking up at the pollution cleared air and into the night sky. I was thankful of this girl’s words the Lord gave her, but kind of just brushed them off, still choosing to feel sorry for myself. As we got back to our house after soaking prayer, Laura looked at me and said “Kels, I just saw a shooting star! He’s saying He loves you!” I felt my body form goosebumps, as it normally did when the Lord speaks directly to me. But still, I brushed it off. It’s probably just a coincidence I told myself.
Sunday morning came and my squad and I headed to church. Before the sermon was given, a lady came to the front of the congregation for intercessory prayer. She told us to open our Bibles to Isaiah 40 and read along with her. Jesus decided at this moment to grab hold of me and not let me brush Him off any longer. As we read verse 26, my heart filled with joy and gladness and I finally began to believe it.
“WHO BRINGS OUT THE STARS ONE BY ONE? HE CALLS THEM ALL BY NAME. BECAUSE OF THE GREATNESS OF HIS MIGHT AND THE STRENGTH OF HIS POWER, NOT ONE OF THEM IS MISSING.”
I am not missing.
He sees me and He loves me.
