Training Camp.
I don’t even know where to start with that at the moment, so much in a week. I’m still processing through it, so I’ll post about it several times over the course of this next week.
Right now I have a song stuck in my head.
Random thought, right?
Well, actually it’s been stuck in my head since Thursday morning.
Thursday was the first day of training camp that I felt good and didn’t have any symptoms from my concussion.
(Oh by the way, I was in a really bad car wreck on the day before I left for training camp. Praise Jesus I walked away with only a concussion and bad bruising. But I’ll talk about that later too.)
Thursday morning as we were outside, I was approached by a lady on staff at adventures. She said that as she was looking out over our group that her eyes kept being drawn to me and that God had given her a word to speak over me. Radiant. She said that she could visibly see the radiance of Christ’s love shining brightly from me.
I was so encouraged. Up until Thursday I had been so frustrated with having a concussion, feeling like I wasn’t mentally present, like I wasn’t getting as much out of training camp and the teaching that I should have been. Frustrated that I wasn’t physically as strong because of my wreck and feeling like a burden to my squad who had to pick up my slack. As I told my WR mom, Rynette, about it she reminded me that I needed to take it to Jesus (and the truth that I wasn’t a burden) and encouraged me to spend some time journaling about it.
As I spent time with Jesus late Wednesday I felt better mentally and emotionally. I felt so loved by my savior and was so at peace and content in him. Thursday morning I was listening to the song We Dance right after I woke up. If you haven’t listened to it, pause here and go do that, it’s well worth it.
That song has been stuck in my head since then.
Then Thursday night as we had our last worship session at training camp Ryan came up and spoke what God laid on his heart over me. He said that Jesus delighted so much in me. Ryan said he saw an image of me and Jesus dancing and me twirling around and being gently led by my savior. He said a few other things too, and his words were very seriously describing the exact image Jesus placed in my heart as I had been listening to We Dance that morning. The image that had brought me such contentment and had ministered to my heart and spirit all day and that has continued to do so since then.
My savior, he loves me and pursues a deep relationship me. He calls me beloved. He leads me gently, patiently, lovingly.
This past week has been one of the biggest challenges for me and I have so much to share about it, but this is what needed to come first, because honestly, it’s probably one of my favorite parts of it all.
I’ll leave you here with the lyrics to the song We Dance.
You steady me
Slow and sweet we sway
Take the lead and I will follow
Finally ready now
To close my eyes and just believe
That you won’t lead me where you don’t go
When my faith gets tired
And my hope seems lost
You spin me round and round
And remind me of that song
The one you wrote for me
And we dance
And we dance
I’ve been told
To pick up my sword
And fight for love
Little did I know
That love had won for me
Here in your arms
You still my heart again
And I breathe you in
Like I’ve never breathed til now
And we dance
Just you and me
And I will lock eyes
With the one who’s ransomed me
The one who gave me joy from mourning
And I will lock eyes
With the one who’s chosen me
The one who set my feet to dancing
We dance
Just you and me
It’s nice to know
I’m not alone
I’ve found my home here in your arms
