In the Seeking

Lord, I find you in the seeking,

Lord, I find you in the doubt,

& to know you is to love you,

& to know so little else,

I need you,

oh how I need you,

Lord, I find you in the morning,

Lord, I seek you every day,

let my life be for you glory,

woven in your threads of grace,

I need you,

oh how I need you.

Light glorious light,

I will go where you shine,

break the dawn,

crack the skies,

make the way bright before me,

in your light I will find all I need,

all I need is you.

The lyrics of the song How I Need You by All Sons & Daughters have been so stuck in my head lately. My heart meditating on the message behind the words.

I’m overwhelmed every step of this journey for the World Race. Almost constantly feeling like Satan is attacking me, struggling to keep my doubting heart in check and to fully trust Jesus. At the same time so very overwhelmed by the calling I have received and the outpouring of love and support from friends and strangers alike. My heart is full and bursting.

Already Jesus is making me so much more dependent on him, to seek him in every area. I’m so thankful for the friends I have holding me accountable and pointing me back to Jesus every time things start getting tough. Thanks for all the scripture and prayer you have sent my way, for all the coffee dates, little notes, and gospel chats pushing me to think and know fully what I believe and how to share that with others and love them well. Thank you for loving me well.

Thanks for just sticking with me.

I have so many more things I want to blog about at the moment, but this just needed to be first.

Thank you for being the embodiment of the love Jesus has for me these past few days and weeks.