selah.
pause.
stop and think.
be.
It has been hard for me to do this since coming home. I have had plenty of opportunities
to relax, but letting my mind reach that place has been slightly more difficult.
Honestly, I’m scared to do it, because I’m unsure as to how I will
react. The Lord brought me so many beautiful blessings while on the
race. I learned more about His love in one year, than in my entire
life. It was an incredible, emotional ride and I can’t believe it is
over. It truly does feel like a dream. I just almost feel like the
race is “untouchable” in me right now, as
weird as that sounds. I haven’t cried nearly as much as I thought I
would, but I also haven’t let my mind wander back on it, for fear that
the floodgates would open and not close for awhile.
It’s not that I don’t love where I am right now. I absolutely have the
best community of friends in Madison and such a loving family
surrounding me. I know that this season is good, necessary and vital to
my life. The Lord has been speaking to me about beautiful things to
come and I am so excited to see those come to fruition.
I made a video, highlighting my race. I would love it if you would
watch it. I am going to do the same. And I am going to let myself go
there. I am going to open up my heart and let the Lord bring me back to
Kenya, back to Thailand, back to China.
Lord,
open up my heart.
selah.
selah.
I love you.
