It’s so easy for me to get caught up in the details.
Buy an internal-frame backpack- check.
Get a massive amount of immunizations- groan, check.
Find my passport-took a while, but check J
While this preparation is necessary, I’m finding that I’m limiting myself with preparation that is vital.
I’m losing sight of what drew me here in the first place.
Why am I going on the World Race?
To share the gospel. To live out the gospel. To further the gospel.
It’s all about Jesus- His love, His grace, His holiness.
My heart is overflowing with passion to love the “least of these� only because of Jesus.
The tie I feel to Africa comes from Jesus.
Righteous Indignation comes from Jesus.
I am living, loving and being loved only because of Jesus.
He is everything.
Details are not bad, but they can be dangerous if while focusing on them, you lose sight of the heart of the matter.
As I was processing this with the Lord, He brought me to the story of Martha and Mary.
“As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, ‘Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!’
‘Martha, Martha,’ the Lord answered, ‘you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.’ Luke: 10-38-42
I am Martha.
I am being so blinded by my “preparations� that I am missing what God has called me to; to sit at His feet.
“One thing I ask from the LORD,
this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.� Psalm 27: 4
He is our portion. We don’t need anything but Him.
“My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.� Psalm 73: 26
We will fail, it’s inevitable. It’s through this brokenness though, that God
displays the true beauty and trustworthiness of His strength.
“Be still and know I am God� Psalm 46:10
God has used this verse in such a consistent way in my life. It’s always during times like these, when I am so focused on trying to work out all my plans and have my life “according to Kelly�.
But God uses this verse to step in and say, “Kelly, chill out. Stop trying to figure everything out, you’re not going to. Just know that I am the God of the universe, and that I love you so incredibly much. Give your plans to me and sit at my feet. Trust me and be still.�
So that’s where I am going to plant myself, at Jesus’ feet.
He will direct my steps, I only need to be still and listen.
