My life has been a whirlwind lately.
There are so many things that have been happening, so many blessings being given to me, and basically SO many things that I could write about, but I’m kind of bad at this whole blogging consistently thing…. So, I’m going to write a blog that sums up the overarching theme of it all.
God isn’t limited by lack of faith.
When I returned from Florida on March 8th, where I had my Senior internship for college, I was drained. I wasn’t ready to move back into my real life. I started whining to God about how overwhelmed I was getting, and blah blah blah. And then I realized how STUPID I was being. So, I asked God to build my faith in HIS goodness.
Then He spoke something profound to me, that shook me.
“I am going to bless you. However, when I bless you, it’s not just for you. I bless you, because you will bless others in My name.“
I realized that God doesn’t bless me just because He thinks I’m awesome. He blesses me because all of those blessings end up blessing others. My blessings aren’t even for me! If that doesn’t humble you, I don’t know what will. It smacked the pride right out of me. At least for a little bit. It’s definitely a work in progress. But, I digress.
The president of my college, Pastor Mike Cavanaugh, is always praying these radical prayers. The current one he is praying is that the school will be blessed with $100,000. Um, what?! Can I get a dose of that faith, please? Somehow when He prays it, I’m totally on board. But there is NO way I could believe God for that amount of money.
Then, I realized something radical.
The God that provides my college with $100,000, is the same God that provides for ME.
CAN I JUST TAKE A MINUTE TO SAY.. THAT IS REALLY GREAT!
Somehow, I had it subconsciously in my head that I pray to some lesser-God. I was believing the lie that God can totally bless Pastor Mike with that huge blessing, but He’d never do that for me. So, I’ll just stick to my little prayers.
Then I realized that’s also selfish. Seems to be a common theme in my life. – Who am I to limit the God of the universe? I need to make bold prayers, in order to live a bold life for Him! A perfect example of this is Joshua in the Bible.
On the day the Lord gave the Amorites over to Israel, Joshua said to the Lord in the presence of Israel: “Sun, stand still over Gibeon, and you, moon, over the Valley of Aijalon.” So the sun stood still, and the moon stopped, till the nation avenged itself onb its enemies, as it is written in the Book of Jashar. The sun stopped in the middle of the sky and delayed going down about a full day. – Joshua 10:12-13
The sun literally STOPPED. Now, that’s something we could talk about scientifically, and all the effects that would happen, and how crazy awesome that is. But the point is, I pray to the same God that Joshua prayed to. Yet, I don’t believe He will provide for me?
After I had this amazing revelation for myself, I started praying for God to help me with my unbelief.
I WANT to believe that you will provide for me, like you did for Joshua and Pastor Mike. I want to believe that you hear my prayers, just like you do theirs. I want to be blessed, but not just for me. I want to be blessed, so that others will know that You are the true God.
When I pray little prayers, I prevent others from seeing miracles.
And then I began praying really radical prayers. And He began to answer with really radical answers.
GOD IS REALLY COOL.
Here is the result of my last 2 weeks of radical prayers:
– My school has been paid off, leaving me debt free.
– I became fully funded for the World Race (except various equipment).
– I had complete God-ordained closure from a relationship that has been lingering for 4+ years, that I had been waiting for.
– God confirmed over and over the answer to questions I’d been praying about a blossoming friendship.
– My employer informed me that they could hold my job for me for the WHOLE time I’m gone, and I can go back to work when I return next May. (Which they normally drop people after 6 weeks of absence).
– I had my Senior Prophecy that spoke amazing things into my heart, both future and present.
Not only do these directly make me want to scream, and jump for joy….. but they allow others to see that PRAYER WORKS. That God is REAL. That God ALWAYS PROVIDES. That He hears, and answers, our radical prayers. These radical answers to my radical prayers, open up many more doors for me to share God’s supernatural Love with others.
How many times have I missed the opportunity to share Christ’s love with someone, because I didn’t ask Him for the impossible? I don’t know about you, but that’s quite a reality check for me.
From now on, I’m dedicating to believing God for radical things. I’m believing that God blesses me, so other’s will come to know Him.
Don’t believe me? Try it for yourself.
