Anyone who has ever heard my testimony knows receiving the gift of salvation and freedom in Christ took me years and years to do. It wasn’t that I didn’t believe Jesus was the Messiah. I truly believed he was for 3 years prior to accepting him.
Why did it take so long? Because I had no need for God- or at least I didn’t think I did.
I always feel arrogant saying this, but I don’t mean it that way. I feel this is more a curse than a blessing. You see, I haven’t ever really failed miserably at anything. I also haven’t put much effort into anything, either. I may not have ever been the best, but I could be above average without much effort. On top of my ability to pick up skills, I have plenty of gifts that allow me to be successful.
If I can do things on my own, why on earth would I need God?
The answer is quite simply because I can’t actually do any of it without God.
I have come to realize that not only can I not go to heaven without him, but I can’t even breathe without him. I can’t actually do the things I’m designed to do by myself. Not only that, I can’t control anything either. It was these things I had to surrender to even receive the salvation and freedom God offered me. But just because I surrendered and realized I needed God doesn’t mean I walk in that well.
In fact, doing things through God’s strength and not my own is by far the hardest part of the faith walk for me. It is hard for me to do things through Christ’s strength and not my own. It really sucks because I now know that every skill and gift I have and the ability to be so versatile is a gift from God itself – it is not a curse.
God made me with many talents and abilities because he needs people to be able to go out and do whatever needs to be done. I want to do this. I want to walk in the fullness of what God can do through me and not what I can do through myself.
I had a man named Dr. E prohpesy over me last month that God gifted me this way for a purpose and that I need to walk in my gifting through Christ.
I don’t know how to do this or what it looks like. But I do know this, I can be successful on my own. I can create fruit doing things without God. But with God I can produce an abundance. If I do things through Christ’s strength I can do things that will undeniably bring glory to Him. There will be so much fruit that know one will be able to say it was merely a human (Keighty) who made that possible. It had to be God.
Just like Solomon’s wisdom even convinced the Queen of Sheba that the God of the Isrealites was real, so can my gifts. But more important, so can your gifts!
I wish I could tell you how to live your life out of Christ’s strength and not your own, but I can’t. What I can tell you is that your gifting is perfect, and God wants to use them to create an abundance that brings Him glory. So, let him use you and what you have to offer.
