If you have been one of the people who read all my blogs then you know that I am not the biggest kid fan. Yes I love them and think they are absolutely adorable, but I don’t jump with excitement when I am told I will be ministering to them. Well it has been pretty much four months of kids and next month in Cambodia will make it five.
Well let me tell you that God has really been changing my heart this month. I LOVE THESE KIDS!!!!!! These kids are the most awesome kids ever and I do not understand one word that comes out of their mouths. It’s insane how God works. They are so easily entertained and they play games with these fancy stones and push a bunch of kids around on this wagon thing and play soccer and roll tires around. They don’t need video games or a jungle gym, they just grab a friend and they have so much fun with what they find. All day you hear laughter and it is because they are really making the most of every moment.
Wade pushing the little ones around on the wagon thing
I think that I am falling for kids because God is showing me what it means to be a daughter of God and what it means to have Him as my Father. I can call him Poppa and he calls me daughter. As his daughter I am righteous, pure, beautifully and wonderfully made, completely known, unconditionally loved, blameless, good enough, and never let down! What a dad!!!
Learning how I am seen has changed my view of kids drastically. I saw them as little, snotty, booger picking, sugared up squirts who just yell and hang on you until you want to collapse. Ok maybe all of that is really true, but I never saw it as admirable because I can’t have deep conversations with them. Now my heart melts when I see them. I think about their potential and how my words and my actions can either build them up or wound them. These kids have the whole world on their hands and I want each of them to follow their dreams without having discouragement or doubt spoken to them. I can only imagine how much the Lord rejoices when they sing praises to him, my heart surely does.
Today was the day that I really realized how much I loved them. This morning before church I prayed this prayer to God:
“Poppa, show me who you want me to love for you today”
After church I saw three little boys just waiting to be loved on, and when I say loved on I mean chased around. I ran after these kids for a good 30-40 minutes and they multiplied from three to about eight boogie pickers. I chased after these little kids with their adorable smiles filled with rotted teeth through their little rooster infested Lahu village as they quoted me saying FI FY FO FUM and yelling something in Lahu that sounded like idiot. I just want to take all of their little giggly selves home with me and hug them all day long and tell them how much they are worth and how awesome they are!!!!!!
Ahhhh I could eat them up!!!!
One of the four I am adopting. You hould see his little toothless smile and hear his heart melting laugh
