The last few days my heart and my flesh have really been at war inside of me. My flesh wants to give into so many things that I know are wrong for me and will push me away from the Lord. As I could feel myself slipping away from the Lord, I can also feel him asking me to come back to him. On Tuesday it was like I could feel the Lord, physically and emotionally begging for me to come back, to come away with him, to just be with him. He was begging for my heart, fighting for it to win in this battle. It was like he was reminding me Hey, the King of Kings and Lord of Lords is begging for you to notice me. It broke my heart as I could feel the Lord just pursuing me. I don’t want to ever neglect what I have with the Lord right now. I have become so close and so intimate with him and I don’t want anything to get in the way of what he is trying to do in me right now. It was almost like I could feel his jealousy for me. The last two nights I have danced with my heavenly Father. I haven’t done that since coming home from the race and oh how I have missed it! It is a feeling that is hard to explain. I love to just be in his presence and dance with him. I feel closest to him during that time. It just amazes me how much the Lord pursues his children. He longs for us to just be with him, to just bask in his presence. Sometimes all I do is just sit with him and listen to what he has to say to my heart. He longs to have that time with us each and every day. He is jealous of anyone or anything that steals that time away from being with him. He wants every part of us, every piece of our hearts. He has called each of us to a deeper relationship with him. Nothing can ever compare to his love and his grace. It still blows my mind every time that I think of the fact that he doesn’t need us but he so desperately wants and longs for us. I encourage you to just spend as much time with him as possible each day. You can dance, sing, sit in his presence, listen to him, read from the Bible, just whatever you feel like the Spirit is asking you to do. Don’t be afraid to go deeper with him and become intimate with him. He is longing for you to come to him!
“I will be yours, I will be yours for all my life, so let you mercy write the path before me!”-All Sons and Daughters
