Before I knew Jesus
I was a little girl of fear, comparison, and lots of anger
I was a little girl who…
I was a little girl who was growing up in a home with two parents who fought all the time, and a younger sister who was too young to understand what was going on
I was a little girl who had her mom stay with her all of preschool because I was afraid to be left alone
I was the little girl who would cry in school all the time and never talk to anyone in the class room setting
I was the little girl who had so much bottled up angry inside of me that I would come home and take it out on my sister
I was the little girl who would say I was going to a birthday party and cry the whole time I was there until the parents of the birthday party would take me and track down my mom in Wal-Mart
I was the little girl who thought everyone loved my sister more because she won beauty pageants, was outgoing, and had tons of friends
I was the pre-teen of anxiety, depression, anger, and FEAR
I was the pre-teen who…
I was the pre-teen who hated life and would not go to school for days
I was the pre-teen who could not see I was beautiful instead saw everyone else as gorgeous
I was the pre-teen who had major anxiety whenever asked to speak in front of a class
I was the pre-teen who was still living in fear and thinking about how she might die in a car crash
I was the pre-teen that was bullied in middle school by her soon to be step sister
I was the pre-teen who was told she lied and people did not believe
I was the pre-teen who yelled and hit her mom because of anger
I was the pre-teen whose friends used her
I was the pre-teen who still did not know Jesus or the power of his love for me
After Jesus
I was the teenager who found a passion, kind of knew Jesus,
depressed, anxious, boy problems
I was the teenager who…
I was the teenager who enjoyed going to school
I was the teenager who spent the night with friends for the first time
I was the teenager who locked herself in a closet for a whole weekend
I was the teenager who was jealous of my sister and her accomplishments and beauty
I was the teenager who loved teaching and being in a kindergarten classroom
I was the teenager who dated the wrong men and was hurt by them
I was the teenager who thought I had to help fix all my friends
I was the teenager who went to a Christian camp and saw pure worship
I was the teenager with a childlike faith who started trusting the Lord
I was the college student of disappointment, courage, growth in the Lord, relationships
I was the college student who…
I was the college student who moved an hour away from home for the first time
I was the college student who drank before turning 21
I was the college student who made a few solid friends in the dorms
I was the college student who was going to a bible study every night of the week
I was the college student who struggled in classes
I was the college student who conquered anxiety and depression
I was the college student who led a women’s bible study
I was the college student who took my summers to work at a summer camp
I was the college student who loved that I was starting to hear the lord’s voice
I was the college student who men did not guard my heart
I was the college student who put teaching and getting a degree before the lord (school was my idol)
I am a woman on the race of grace, boldness, a voice that is heard,
love, beauty, and healing
I am a woman who…
I am a woman who knows the Lord has a great plan for her and she doesn’t need to know about the future
I am a woman who knows I am beautiful
I am a woman who knows my sister is an amazing woman and God has blessed her with many things
I am a woman who knows how to love people even in difficult situations
I am a woman who shows grace to others because the Lord has shown me grace
I am a woman who speaks in front on churches and shares my testimony of what Jesus has done in my life with others
I am a woman who has been away from her family for 8 months and is doing well because Jesus sustains me
I am a woman who knows I have things to say to people and to encourage people and speaks them out
I am a woman who has seen what a godly man looks like and how he treats his sisters in Christ
I am a woman who appreciates her mom and dad because of everything they have done for me
I am a woman who knows I cannot fix or help others but instead allow Jesus to help them sometimes using me
I am a woman who sees the lord in small things and BIG things
I am a woman who hears my daddy’s voice and does what he tells me to do
I am a woman of worship
I am a woman who is love
I am a woman of honesty
I AM A NEW CREATION!
2 Corinthians 5:17 So if anyone is in Christ there is a new creation:
everything old has passed away; see everything has become new!
