I absolutely love it when I am going through my normal everyday routine ( or “going through the motions” if you will) and then all of a sudden; out of nowhere, God just hits me BAMB, with a reminder of who He is and how HE loves. At the beginning of every month I check my support account to see if my awesome supporters have deposited their normal amount so that I can adjust my budget accordingly. Well, this month was no different. I signed into my Wauchula state bank account and pulled up my information. When the web page on my screen downloaded there it was; a deposit from my dad, the same deposit that I have seen every month since I have decided to go on the world race.
You see, more recently, I have felt distant from God. I still wake up in the morning and go to my ministry, loving His children and praying and living life walking with Him. I know that He hasn’t left and I know that He still loves me, but I have felt a little empty like my fuel tank is running low and I need to be filled up with Him, with His word and His love. Then I saw the deposit that my dad so lovingly has put into my account for 14 consecutive months (ever since I started fundraising.) The deposit that is there every month, always, no matter what. I began to think of how much my dad loves me, I thought about how hard he works to provide for me, the sacrifices the he makes, and my heart was full. My heart was full with the knowledge that my daddy takes care of me, he prays for me, he loves me, and he thinks of me even when I don’t talk to him everyday (or even weeks).Immediatley, I thought of my Heavenly Father and I thought about all of the deposits that He makes in me on a daily basis. I thought of all of the love, thoughts, passion, care, joy, and sometimes pain that He has to go through to make that investment in me. I thought about how even though I don’t always “feel” His love and I don’t always see how He is caring for me. I KNOW that my God is LOVE and I know that He loves like no other. I thought about how if my earthly father knows how to provide for me, how to pray for me, how to love me, how to invest in me, and how to be my father. How much MORE does God invest, love, provide, and know how to be my Father?
I am comforted by the truth that His love has no bounds, His love is greater and bigger than anything that I know. He love is not bound by my feelings or my actions. Praise God, for His goodness, His love, and His graceful reminders to His Children that we are His, and nothing will ever change that!
I was reminded of Matthew 7:7-12 and Romans 8:35-39 when writing this blog.. God is ALWAYS good! Much love!!
Kayla
