“O God, let us be a generation that seeks, that seeks Your Face, O God of Jacob.” -Give Us Clean Hands by Chris Tomlin
There are times in my life where worship brings me to my knees in adoration of God. This song, however, brings me to my knees in desperation and longing; to be a generation that seeks the Face of the Lord so wholeheartedly, that we would all fall on our knees in worship.
My generation. My people.
The burden on my heart is so real, I can feel it with every beat. When I meet people from my generation whose hearts are fully alive for the Lord, so much joy and excitement fills my heart that I fear it might explode. And when I meet people from my generation who might not be pursuing the Lord very much, or even at all, my heart breaks for them.
I just wish they could see how good life with the Lord is! If only they could experience the same freedom that I have found in Christ, surely they would want to seek His Face too. The Lord has changed my life in a very dramatic way. When I was caught in my sin, He did not condemn me, but brought me into His loving arms and embraced me for all that I was. He revealed the hurt and pain in my past and told me that He would remember it no more. Do you know how much freedom that brought me?!?!
When I made the decision to leave the ways that I knew and follow Him just four years ago, I never would have thought that He would have brought me so far in such a short period of time. Or that I could experience such freedom. My walk with the Lord has felt more like a sprint at times. It’s been exhilarating, inspiring, and sometimes tiring, but it has all been worth it and I have grown so much. The past year, even more so than the first three years I think. And I wouldn’t change any of it.
Last year, when I left on the World Race, I set out to “find” that one ministry the Lord would call me to. Maybe it would be a ministry, maybe it would be one country. I didn’t know, but I knew that this trip would launch me further into the calling that the Lord has on my life. I was excited and enthusiastic. So as my race went on, and months 9 and 10 started to come around, I began to feel slightly disappointed. I had not experienced that feeling yet, the feeling of just being alive and knowing that this is what the Lord made me for. I got discouraged. I would cry out to the Lord, “Why haven’t you shown me, yet? I don’t understand.” But I knew I could trust Him, and so in my disappointment I sought after Him still. And then, somewhere in month 10, the Lord began to show me my true passion: My generation.
The ministry that I truly enjoyed on the race (though I enjoyed many others also) was spending time with my squad mates. I came fully alive when I spoke with them, when I sought the Lord for encouragement for them, when I was talking with them and trying to pour into them. That was what I enjoyed most! Those are the moments when my heart was so full of the love of the Father. And as the Lord began to reveal this passion to me, I realized that the ministry I was called to was the World Race in itself.
Being a missionary for 11 months, I understand the trials that racers face. Come month 9, we start to become exhausted. We see things that many people never see, some good and some not so good. Our eyes are opened to a whole new world out there, and we need people rallying around us, to support us, to encourage us, and to spur us on towards deeper spiritual maturity.
Enter squad leaders. 🙂 Squad leaders are people who have done the race before and then launch with a squad for the first five months of their race. They are there to mentor, to disciple, and to encourage the racers. They bring wisdom, truth, and love from the Father to the racers. My squad leaders poured into me so much. They encouraged me and helped me to grow in ways I wasn’t even aware I needed to grown in. I would not be the person I am today without the Lord using them to teach me and encourage me while I was gone.
And now I believe that the Lord is calling me to do the same.
I have such a passion for my generation, to go out, to make disciples of all people and to change the world and also be changed by the power of the Lord. I thought God would call me to be a missionary to a certain country. What I realize now is that He is calling me to be a missionary to the missionaries. To encourage, to spur on, and to pray for the racers He puts in my path. This is where my heart comes alive. This is why I was created. There is no doubt in my mind that this is what the Lord has for me. I am beyond excited for this next adventure!
And so in preparation for that, I have felt the Lord call me to CGA, the Center for Global Action, which is a discipleship/apprenticeship program through Adventures in Missions. They have several tracks to choose from, and I will be attending two that I really felt the Lord put on my heart.
For the first four months of CGA, I will be attending the “Worship track”, where I will learn about seeking after the heart of the Father through different avenues of worship. I have a worshipper’s heart and am so excited for this track!
The second four months, I will be attending the Field Leadership track. This track will teach me how to be a godly leader on the field or off the field. I am really excited for this track, too, because I know that it will help me to become a better leader and will help me to learn how to make an impact among those in my generation. If everything goes well, once I have completed this track I intend to squad lead another generation of World racers!
I leave for Georgia in a little less than one month. I am currently fundraising for CGA, which is a total of $7,000 for eight months. This amount covers my housing, my classes, and some of my food and gas to get between the office and my home. Right now I have $500 in my account. In order to be able to leave in September, I need to have at least $2,000. Would you prayerfully consider supporting me in this new adventure? You can donate many ways,
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Please pray for me, as I begin this journey towards Georgia. Right now, I have $50 in my savings account to get me there. I’m driving my car, and so I’ll need a bit more than that to get there, but I am trusting that the Lord will provide for my needs.
Thank you for all of your support throughout this past year. Thank you for reading my blogs and for praying for me and encouraging me. May God bless you abundantly!
In Christ,
Kayla <3
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