I love personality tests. Myers Briggs, Strength Quest, Love Languages, things that lead me to understand someone in a new perspective. If you don’t know me well… I’m a huge feeler. (Don’t stop reading there because that sounds creepy) I feel emotions deeply, I feel emotions of others deeply and I can often use my feelings to shape my opinion or outlook on something or someone.
In anything, one has to find balance. Which in my case is balancing between my feelings and thinking. Letting my emotions take precedence without analyzing a situation can be very dangerous. Times of pain and hardship can blind one from seeing the bigger picture.
This month I had a difficult conversation, that honestly hurt like hell. For a day I let that conversation have too much power over me. I sat in my pain, hurt, frustrations and allowed darkness to wrap itself around me. I couldn’t see past all I was feeling. It blinded me. Making it very easy for Satan to whisper lies about who I am and my short comings.
However, my God is love. He doesn’t ever leave me. He is always pursuing me, giving me strength, renewing me. He pulled me out of the dark muck I stuck myself in, and showed me I didn’t have to be there. He already made a way out for me a long time ago. Silly me.
It’s easy to narrow in on a situation and forget the bigger picture. That often those hardships strengthen us and prepare us in ways we can’t see at the moment, but God knows. He loves broadening our perspective. To me I was stuck in that muck and it’s all I saw, pain. But he just sees me, beneath the muck, His daughter.
Now I can see what the hard conversation did for me. I get an opportunity to step up, an opportunity to appreciate Gods relentless love, pursuit and grace for me! Gosh and how beautiful is that? He loves turning something dark for His light! Reveals his perfection.
So that’s what I’m learning. To balance my feeling and thinking. That when situations arise, I will allow myself to feel but also focus on what I know is truth. Widening my perspective to see through His vision. Because His plans are far greater then mine.
The song “High Above It All” by For All Seasons is my jam. Helps me rejoice that I serve the Almighty King who’s above it all. Nothing is too small or too big for Him. That includes little o’l me. 🙂
Waters roar and mountains fall, you remain high above it all
Kingdoms rage and nations shake but you remain high above it all
Almighty God
(Some intense drumming that gets you pumped)
There is triumph in your presence
Healing in your peace
So I will lift my voice proclaiming victory!!!
Little update of the month:
Guys… Rwanda rocks! It was our teams favorite month so far. We partnered with International Healing Center. Pastor Fatier is one of the most amazing women I know. A woman who is a widow, has such a deep passion to serve her church community, a mother to many, a visionary and strong leader. She blessed our team abundantly, wanting us to have a month of rest. She only wanted us to focus on prayer and our ministry. Which was speaking in the church five days of the week, hospital ministry and children’s ministry. We spoke on bringing the Kingdom here on earth. That we don’t have to wait for heaven because the Kingdom of God is working around us we just have to open our eyes to it and choose to jump in! Beginning of the month I just kept hearing Revival over the church, so I preached on it. Mom (pastor Fatier) told us it was the third time Revival has been called out on the church. And it’s happening! I have never been apart of such a joy fest dance party! Their love and praise for Jesus is contagious and growing rapidly! Let’s go.
We also started doing Bible studies in the homes of church members, focusing on the importance of an intimate community. Growing together. We have been told they are going to continue this when we leave.
We are in the boonies with no wifi and walk an hour to get to church. It’s legit! So beautiful, rolling hills and we just get to have great convos on our walks. Our team has coffee chats in the morn to discuss our opinions on different topics of Christianity. It’s strengthening our faith and creating intimacy within the team.
We leave in a couple days for Ethiopia where our team will be Unsung Heroes. Meaning we will be looking for new future contacts for World Race. It’s exciting, we roam around following the Spirit, meeting new people and jumping at opportunities. We are the first team to do this in Ethiopia. So that’s rad.
Missing all you family and friends! Can’t believe the race is half way through! Thank you for all your prayers and love! It means the world to me. Hehe literally.
