Esther 4:14
Perhaps, you were born for such a time as this.
Who am I? How can you use me? What am I worth? These are questions we have all asked at some point.
These past couple of weeks, God has been showing me what my true identity looks like. Where I get my worth from, and how it affects everything I do. I didn’t realize how often or for how long I struggled with this. It has been so heavy on my heart, that God wants people to see their true identity. One that is not based on clothing, or success, or appearance.
I’ve been reading the book of Esther. And God has taught me so much from a story I though I already knew so well.
Esther is known as the brave, beautiful, fearless Queen who saved her people.
But as I was reading, I realized, she was an orphan. She was poor. She was disliked because of her heritage. She was scared, and just an ordinary girl. But the King loved her.
He loved her so much, despite the fact that she entered his presence with out an invitation, that he was willing to give her anything she asked for. Even up to half of his very very large kingdom.
Because he saw Esther for who she truly was. He saw that she was smart, kind, beautiful, and loving. He saw her, out of all the other women in the kingdom.
And because she knew the king loved her, she was able to do something amazing! Save an entire nation!
God has been showing me that he loves me even more than the king loved Esther. Even though I am nothing. A sinner. Even though I fail everyday.
He sees me for who I truly am.
And he told me that he sees me as brave. He sees me as beautiful. As strong. Kind. Free. Valued. Courageous. Adored. Precious. And his beloved. I am his! This is my true identity.
God sees these things in me. Even when no one else does. And He loves reminding in little ways throughout my day. Even when I’m having a bad hair day, he tells me I’m beautiful. Even when I’m scared, he calls me brave. When I feel alone, He reminds me that he is always in my heart, and by my side.
I can never escape his love for me. I feel it all around me. And he has a plan for me. He wants to use all of us in amazing, unimaginable ways. Just like Esther. If only we see how much the king loves us and say yes. I know that no matter what people say about me, that God wants to use me, and that I was born for such a time as this.
Update: Team Meek (holla!) has moved in with us! Both teams are doing great, and preparing for a school program here in El Sal! We will be teaching English, helping cook meals, playing games, and helping with art and computer classes. The program starts this monday!!! We are super excited!
In other news, we only have about 3 weeks left in El Swagador. Then we move on to Malawi, Africa!! So pumped!
Thank you everyone who has been praying for us! We are still Dengue free! Praise The Lord! Please keep my team mates (team Meek included) in your continual prayers as we finish up out ministry here, and move to a new one in Africa.
Also, my friend Daysi Wilkinson is still not fully funded. She is the amazing team leader of Meek. And she is one of the coolest girls I’ve ever met. Please keep her in your prayers, that God will continue to provide!
Love you all and thank you! God bless you!
