I am dependent. Powerless. Weak. Drowning. And while all those adjectives should sound scary, they have me in a beautiful place: a place where I can’t go one minute without crying out to my Father or I will sink. I am grateful to be in this place. Paul says in his letter to the Philippians that he “knows the secret”. He has been well fed and he has been starving. He has lived in abundance and he has lived with nothing. His revelation? That he can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens him. I feel that it is easier to cling to Jesus in that state of having nothing than it is to cling to Him in a state of abundance. But the thing is, although I am not physically hungry or in need, my soul is thirstier than ever. And Paul’s secret remains true; as I let Him strengthen me, there is nothing He cannot accomplish through me.
This year I have seen God heal many people. God has changed at least 42 hearts. I know each one of them personally. There is no telling how many hearts have been changed by these 42 people that I travel the world with. We are all dependent upon Him, who gives us strength. We have seen the blind see, the deaf hear, we have cast out our fair share of demons (in us and others) and we know a few people that have raised the dead. We all believe that God is using us to bring His Kingdom to Earth. We are merely empty vessels thirsting for the everlasting water.
God has used me. Let me say that again. God has used me. Me! I am nothing but a average girl from Alabama (well, maybe not average in height). I haven’t done anything amazing in my life. But God thinks differently about me. He saw something in me. And He is using if for His glory!!! I get so excited when God heals someone through me. This past weekend I had the opportunity to pray for a woman with chest pain. I didn’t do anything special. I prayed with everything in me that God would heal that woman. And guess what? He did. She gave me the biggest Vietnamese smile, hugged me, and simply walked away. This is the life that I was born to lead because God has a specific purpose in mind when He created me.
