God showed up at work today. Unlike me He was patient, kind and thoughtful. I’m sorry to report that I showed up at work with a less than enthusiastic outlook on the day. I was dragging my feet and rather tired, I wanted nothing more than to crawl back into bed.
To spare tedious details, it’s safe to say, my morning was full of disappointment and surprises. I spent the majority of the first hour ranting and raving how life was unfair. After calling my dad and a few coworkers, getting the pot good and stirred, I started my day worth of work. The only good choice I made was volunteering to file. Filing relaxes me. It gives me time to think. It felt good to be alone with my thoughts.
As I sat at that table praying for some kind of peace… peace washed over me. My nerves clamed my blood pressure lowered and all of a sudden I could see the beauty in my life. I was no longer angry that I didn’t get the promotion. I was no longer angry that training was taking place. I was no longer bothered by inconveniences. I was calm.
The amazing part isn’t that I was calm, it was the opportunity I was given to be a good Christian example. Admitting I am wrong isn’t the easiest thing for me. Not only did I need to retract a few harsh statements made to coworkers but I needed to apologize for my bad attitude too. It was a humbling experience. There was something great that came out of apologizing, like liberation. It feels good to do what is right, even if it is humbling (let that be an encouragement).
I want this next year with the WR to be a humbling experience. All those things I was irritated at were selfish reasons. Not a one of them was for a greater cause then my own. I want to be at a level where I am putting others before myself without having to go through a huge thought process. I want it to be natural.
God … [gulp] teach me humility.
