Have you ever had a moment where you are literally at a loss for words?
Where you try to talk and if anything actually comes out it’s just gibberish.
A moment where something is so perfect it just cannot be true.
or my most infamous quote…. “Is this real life?”
Well I had one of those moments.
It was the like the most climactic part of a movie where a moment continues to build until you are on the edge of your seat and then nothing needs to be said, you just feel it. You feel every emotion all at once. A slideshow of emotions so picturesque and vivid that you cannot speak.
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This month our team, the Dream Team has Unsung Heroes. We have had the pleasure of meeting so many people bringing Kingdom here in Nepal. But more importantly we get to hear the dreams and visions The Lord has given these people. And that is by far my most favorite part of Unsung Heroes.
I have had the pleasure of doing UH two months; but none, no not one, has ever felt like this.
I’m still in the process of putting words together of exactly what happened. All I know is The Lord showed up and the Holy Spirit came completely over me.
I get chills now even thinking about it. I have never experienced something so real, so tangible, like this before.
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Let me catch you up on the background first…
A few of my teammates and myself had the pleasure of visiting a ministry called Beauty for Ashes. BFA is a small business that provides jobs for women rescued from sexual exploitation and women at risk. They focus on handicraft items like jewelry, scarves, and bags. My team was going to visit with the idea that we would just be able to hang out with the women, package small items, organize, and furthermore help serve in whatever way deemed necessary. Little did we know what was about to happen.
After morning devotions and worship with the women, we were able to sit down with a woman named Glenda. Let me just tell you now, Glenda is an Unsung Hero, and she will always have a special place in my heart. She began to tell us her story, how she came to work here, and just the true heart behind Beauty for Ashes. After all of this, she began to just tell us how BFA was looking to move forward and the steps that would take.
Then it happened.
Glenda said BFA was looking for a creative designer, photographer, and….
That was it. That was all I heard. I can honestly say I have no idea what she said after that.
All I kept thinking was wow, this is a dream job. To help design and create jewelry? Like come on, is this real life? And then to also help take photographs of the women, the business, and the jewelry. The Lord and I were having a serious heart to heart right about now. I had been talking with Him earlier about plans after the Race; and I had found a few options–all of which I loved. But this, this was a dream. There was no way it was real. At this point I began to push aside all the thoughts floating around in my head so that we could tour the house.
The Lord had different plans, and the dream began to grow. On the stairwell wall there were photos. Gorgeous photos of each woman employed for BFA, but guess what was next to it? Oh you know, just their DREAMS. That’s right, their dreams. Not only was this an organization that helped sexually exploited women, which might I add is one of the reasons I felt called to the race, but they just casually had their dreams posted up on the wall next to their glamour shots. I felt like I was living the dream inside of my head, real talk.
We continued touring the house… And then it happened. I walked into the room where it all goes down. The room where the “creative designer” would, well, creatively design. Insert my jaw dropping right about now, and my heart beating out of my chest. I had that loss for words, speaking gibberish, about to burst out of my skin moment. Then I saw it…I saw, myself. After, of course, I saw the chalk board painted wall behind the clearly designated desk where all the magic happens. I saw myself creatively designing and bringing Kingdom with Beauty for Ashes. I loossstttt it.
After we finished walking around I had a huge explosion of word vomit all over Glenda. I could not contain myself anymore, and I had finally found my words. I can remember telling her, through my tears, that The Lord brought me to her for a reason. That The Lord had given me visions of my own NGO, and that on the Race he has continually talked to me about what it would look like. And up until this point I realized I had began planning my life again, and not letting The Lord. So he broke me, right then and there, with a dream job.
I’m still having trouble putting all these pieces together. But all I know is something happened in that room. Something crazy, something so from The Lord.
So why am I writing a blog about this?
1) ya’ll need to check out BFA on the world wide web and support their cause. They are bringing Kingdom, and it’s awesome.
www.beautyforashesintl.com
2) your girl needs some serious prayer–Nepal has stolen my heart in almost every way possible. This place is full of dreams, and ones I didn’t even know I had are coming true.
3) What are your dreams? Pursue The Lord earnestly and figure out what his dreams are for you. It’s like when you’re a little kid and you try to compile everything you love into one “dream” job, yet The Lord already has that dream job waiting for you. And that’s exactly what I found. It’s challenging and overwhelming, but I love it, I love it all.
