Relationship
I started to pray: “God please give me some great ideas for fundraising…” Before I could even finish the thought, another cut it off. As I glanced to the right to look at my slightly dusty Bible, this thought somewhat sternly reminded me that while God is more than willing to help us, but how much time had I spent with him today? In the past week? In the past month? The answer: slim to none. The most time that I had spent with God was doing what I had just done: God can you do this, please help me pass this test, I’m upset help me… all one sided, emergent, selfish 5 second prayers. That’s not a relationship. Recently I’ve said I’m not that tight with God or maybe that he’s just not really talking to me but I honestly see I have no room to talk. A relationship and communication are both two sided. Could you imagine doing that to your boyfriend? A few 5 second short sentences a month to him giving no chance to respond. That would majorly irritate someone. Thankfully we have a God who wraps us in Grace. None of our trivial screwups will ever be enough to separate us from him. But here’s the thing, just because he’s not mad doesn’t mean he doesn’t want a relationship! All this time I’ve been waiting for God to make the move when in reality he has just been patiently waiting for me to wake up out of my self-absorbed cocoon.
