Dear Friends,
In just over four and half months I will be on an airplane home. I am so excited to be reunited with you- to go out to coffee, to catch up on our lives, and to hug every last one of you. After a few weeks though the excitement will wear off and life will settle back to normal. You all will go back to your lives, and I will have to start figuring out what is next for mine.
There is no doubt that I have changed this last year, which is all good and jolly, until I start to think about what it will mean to live out these things at home. I could tell you all about the changes in my life, but they will mean nothing to you unless my actions match my words. It will take more strength then I can fathom, and I am sure to fail. But my choices are to either live out a life with God or to settle back into the comforts of home. But who chooses to be uncomfortable? Who chooses to be disliked? Who chooses the harder path?
Oh my friends, I fear being misunderstood by you. I wish I could pour my heart out on this page and you could see what I see. That you could understand the depths of my heart, but the truth is all my words would never allow you to see the vastness of the God I serve. It is something you must discover for yourself.
The first couple months of the race I felt an overwhelming guilt for not loving you well when I was at home. I was scared to speak up; I was afraid that the truth would make you not like me. But as this year unfolds I have seen the boldness that God is equipping me with. It is not a boldness to tear down, but to build up. I am called to be an example of my Fathers great love.
God tore me away from you not to travel the world, or to help others- he tore me away so that I could see more of Him. He wanted me to be transformed from the inside out so that I can inspire others to do the same. Our lives, our churches, our country, we are broken. But God has not left us.
He is there. Seek Him with all your heart and you WILL find Him. {Jeremiah 29:13}
With that I want to be supporting you. I have a good amount of free time (and internet) this month and I would LOVE to hear from you! Email me (katiekurschner at hotmail.com), send me a Facebook message, we can Skype/FaceTime, whatever you want! I look forward to hearing from you all.
With all of my love,
Katie
