Hello all,
It’s been awhile!
I’ve officially been in Cleveland for 2 months now. The Race has begun to feel like a distant memory. And yet it’s still real. It’s still a huge part of my story and how God is continually shaping me into the woman I was always created to be.
I’ve come to view my journey in Asia largely as a tilling season. This past year God tore down a lot of lies and tore up a lot of roots to problems I’ve struggled with my whole life. It was a process necessary to keep the soil of my heart from getting cold and hard.
As he tiled my heart, God continually sowed seeds of hope, joy, promise, and rest. I was able to see the sprouts of some on the field; but largely I was praying blindly that I would have a harvest. My biggest hurtle was the lie that I didn’t have anything of value to give, just as myself.
Yet I believed there was a reason God was working in me and that his words are true.
Yesterday I was reading Numbers 23:19
“God is not man, that he should lie,
or a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Has he said, and will he not do it?
Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it?”
It was a beautiful reminder that it is ok to challenge God when we don’t understand what is going on (don’t see the fruit) but to still trust. Because he is faithful and does not lie.
One of the biggest lessons of my life is learning to trust God more and more and more and more, all the time- no matter what.
Since coming home I have seen the impact of what God has done in me this past year in tangible, powerful ways.
For example: for 3 months whenever someone would give me a prophetic word it was usually how it was going to get “easier.”
One girl in Mongolia who didn’t know my story or anything about me said, ” I feel like God has been searching you out and lighting up dark places in your heart…But I want to encourage you that it’s going to get easier. When you meet with him it’s not going to be this agonizing process but it will be like sitting with him in the morning over a fresh cup of coffee.”
I remembered this word a couple weeks ago in the middle of hanging out with God. I stopped whatever I was in the middle of and exclaimed, “Oh my gosh, it really did get easier!!!” And it has.
These past 2 months I have received and walked out the anointing of prophecy and prayer, seen the gift of dancing explode like I never thought was within me, and have been able to love people with so much greater and easier expression and freedom than any time I can remember.
I have been able to be MYSELF without even thinking about it and have thus been able to love more fully as myself.
I promise to tell you the story of how I got to Cleveland and what we’ve been up to since. But in my belated “End of the Race” blog I just wanted to share this:
The World Race is hard- ridiculously hard sometimes. It will challenge you in every possible way if you let it. But it is SO WORTH IT. Every minute, every encounter, every situation was worth it.
So whether you’re heading out on the field soon, you’re in the middle of the fray, you’ve left and are figuring out this next stage of life, or if your race isn’t the World Race:
Don’t back down from the fight and receive all the joy of the Father because he WILL and IS carrying you through. You are never alone. And if you will trust him there is no limitation of what goodness he will bring into your life.
Be blessed today. And don’t forget to TRUST!
Love,
Katie
