Home.
I think that a lot of times we don’t really appreciate our homes, they seem so constant, like they could never be taken away from us. Ha, until God calls you across the globe and you have the closest thing to literally nothing.
Ever since I have been in Thailand I have been on a constant search for a new home. I wanted Thailand to be my new home and for my team to become my new family. I wanted what I already had in a different location. I was searching for the comforts that I previously knew in America and I was trying to find something that would make me feel the same way my house, family and friends made me feel. I was searching for comforts in material items, items I could not find. As you could assume, I was not finding much of anything, and I became irritated with the Lord, I didn’t understand why I wasn’t having a super awesome time in Thailand. I hadn’t realized that in the mists of looking for comforts in Thailand I had completely missed the whole point of this trip. God didn’t take me to Thailand because He thought I’d love the culture and have a super awesome view out my bedroom window (I neither have a bedroom nor a nice view out of the windows). No, He brought me on this journey so that I could finally make room in my heart for Him. So that He was the only One that I can rely on. At home, I thought I did this, I thought that I had God as the number one in my life, boy was I wrong. I didn’t realize that when I was sick I went to the doctors, no biggie, when I was sad I went to my friends, when I was lonely I went to my parents. I had a solution to all of my problems, I never needed to go to the Lord with my problems first. That’s an issue, Jesus is the only one who can bring me true and genuine comfort, not my bed or a clean shower or my friends or even my awesome parents.
Crazy that I had to fly across the globe to realize this, that God is my comforter, something I thought I already knew. Funny how quickly and extravagantly the Lord humbled me. After a hard first week and a half of being physically sick and home sick, Jesus is really pointing my eyes onto Him and showing me that I need to find a home in His heart, because He lives in mine. Right when we were leaving for launch a lot of people on my squad posted thins quote “If home is where the heart is, and my heart is with the Lord, then I am home wherever I am” This could not be more true or refreshing for me to hear in this season!
Jesus continues to impress me with His true love and faithfulness on and before this trip! I am still praying that I can find all my hope and comfort in Him and that I can be more intentional with feeding my relationship with Jesus. I don’t have any sermons, or elders to help me feed that relationship. It’s literally just me and God on this trip, scary, yet reassuring. I am so thankful for the hardships that I am and going to experience, I have already been taught so much through my trials and its only been a week and a half!!
I am praying for all of you at home! I miss you all dearly and my homecoming is going to be so wonderful, but for now we wait. Another thing God wants me to practice a lot on this trip. There is a lot of waiting on the World Race, so I flood Him with prayers for patience! Anyways, thank you all who donated! I am finally here! I don’t want this blog to make it sound like I’m not having a good time here, I love my teammates and I am really starting to love our ministry, Thailand is a beautiful country and I’ve already been blessed with the opportunity to see a beach and hike a waterfall! The Lord continues to bless my team as this week goes by and I am so thankful for His love!
With soooooooo much love,
Your favorite World Racer, Katie Jane 🙂
