I have a question. This question rolls through my brain, over my heart and back again in a continuous cycle every day all day long.
Who am I?
I am coming to see that the answer is actually quite simple. I am exactly who I am in the moment I am in.
Am I brave person?
I will tell you that I want to be a brave person, but I am not always so. Sometimes I am terrified… Sometimes I am overwhelmed by the fear of the moment to find myself giving in to the terror and running like a little child to my momma. Other times I conquer myself and I stand in the storm facing all the thunder head on. Am I brave? Am I?
Am I an honest person?
Once again I must tell you that I want to be. Honesty and kindness are the most important parts of every relationship, and yet sometimes it is so easy to find your eyes clouded with expectation or emotion and through the mist you see yourself compromising the truth in an effort to spare another’s feelings or for selfish gain. There are times when lies seem so much truer than the truth… Can that be? Am I honest? Am I?
Am I kind person?
Oh my, but I want to be. If I asked my mother would she call me kind? If I asked my pastor would he tell me of the kindness he has seen? If I spoke to the homeless fellow I pass by every Sunday morning… would he call me kind? What about the waitress who takes my order, or my co-worker, or my mailman, or anyone else that I come into contact with. Am I kind? Am I?
Who I am is who I am in the moment in which I am in. Who I am is a ongoing decision that begs to be made with every circumstance in which I am found. Day by day, person by person that is who I am. I am the girl in this skin doing the things I am doing when I am doing them. Am I the kind of person who intentionally hurts others? Well Katie, Are you? Do you want to be? No? Then choose not be that person here and now… and keep choosing whenever the question arises choose to be the person you will be proud of in the next moment… and the next moment… and the next.
But when you don’t and you find yourself not proud remember who you are. Remember who is in charge of you. God created a masterpiece and he gave it a mind and called it you… So make yourself into the creature who is pleasing to both you and Him. At any moment you have the power to take the life given you and become brave or honest or kind or whoever you want to be. Throw a plot twist in your novel if you need to. Tell the truth and be authentic… Because the world needs you to be you. Be the best you can be.
